Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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solofighter 04/06/2012

when will it end? im sick and tired

highs and lows.... ups and downs.. what ever you want to call them... im sick of them. just want to be on the right meds already... dont want to be on meds at all but know i need them right now..

the emotions i feel, the thoughts that run through my mind.. only i know about them.. i cant share them with those i love... cant share them with anyone... if i do.... bad things could happen. i just cant share these things. i want to talk to my counselor about some things.. but its just to hard, and shes very easy to talk to.

just dont know what to do

arfie 04/06/2012

Sharing them has been critical in my own coping. No matter how hard I wish I didn't have to, they keep spinning out of control when I try to let wishing be enough.

solofighter 04/06/2012

how do you share something with someone who will do something about it, if its such a bad thing...

HeatherCliff 04/06/2012

Hi, solofighter. I hate taking meds. I hope you get the right meds to make you feel better soon. I think it is exhausting to talk to a counselor. It takes alot out of me. I just go to my psychiatrist now.

God Bless you and Keep you!!!!!!!!

solofighter 04/06/2012

HeatherCliff,
i love talking to my counselor, i just feel there are some things i cannot tell her, due to confidentiality and how they have to breach that for some things.. im just worried shed take whats on my mind, in the wrong way... and then id be screwed. i dont know.. just cant risk that right now, to much at stake.
i dont have a pdoc right now, in process of getting a new one. i was i school and had one, but had to give him up because i was no longer a student (until i go back in the fall) so im in process of getting a new one. but i dont know, theres just some things on my mind that i feel i have to keep to myself...

HeatherCliff 04/06/2012

You could go to 12- Step meetings. Then you can talk to a sponsor that you can trust. The sponsor is a friend that you can trust. She will not tell your secrets to any other person. That is what I am working on.

solofighter 04/06/2012

i dont know how to say wahts on my mind.. to anyone.. even if i wanted to.. one person kind of knows... but not all of it.

deleted_user 04/06/2012

I'm afraid to tell my counselor everything too. I think it is very helpful to write a journal, and make it public to DS or not as you choose. I also think this is a great place to say anything you want to say.
Hope you get a pdoc soon.

solofighter 04/06/2012

thanks whodoesshethinksheis,
i like knowing im not alone.its just so hard. i dotn know.
i cant write a journal, not about this..

HeatherCliff 04/06/2012

I wrote in a journal because they told me at the mental hospital that it is good to do.

It was good until my husband STOLE IT and he used it against me in court!

solofighter 04/06/2012

wow reallly???

deleted_user 04/06/2012

I'll be damned! Better be careful then!

HeatherCliff 04/07/2012

Yes, he did! How low! He had me kicked out of my home, away from my kids on Oct. 14, 2011. I didn't have a lawyer. He did.

solofighter 04/07/2012

aww im sorry :(

HeatherCliff 04/07/2012

Thanks for your sympathy, solofighter.

solofighter 04/07/2012

not a problem :)

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