go back to the hospital

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I think I’m gonna go back to IOP. I don’t do well in the hospital

I think you should tell your therapist exactly how you feel and all your thoughts. That way he or she can give you the best help they possibly can. I hope you start to feel better, don't give up!

I just talked to my mom who as ever is confused to why I feel this way. But I feel iop will keep me out of the hospital. Prayers are appreciated

So glad you talked to your mom. It always helps to share our feelings with someone we can trust because it takes the secret away and out in the open. It's easier to overcome if we share.

I’m laying in my bed with a 72lb dog laying across my chest and another one on my legs. Deep pressure therapy :) I just took another 5mg of melatonin and will probably pop an ativan I’d i can’t fall asleep soon.
I’ve bwen deep breathing and listening to calming music but my mind won’t shut off

Deep Pressure therapy ...Smiles....
If you can't sleep I am here, and will be all day as I have work to do on the computer. Keep your breathing exercises going as they will help.
I am in the UK so don't know what iop is? But if it keeps you out of the hospital where you don't do well then I'm all for it.

Thanks carolin. IOP is Intensive Outpatient Program. I would be doing group therapy from probably 8-12 three days a week.

Well that sounds much better for you, group work is always good if the group is a supportive one.
Did you manage to sleep at all?

I think u could really benifit from dbt therapy.i think the amount u get suicidal u may have a personality disorder aswell and dbt really is affective for constant ups and downs of suicidal thoughts. If it changes in matters of hours thats more bpd then bp. Im not saying u dont have bp but i can see alot myself in ur behaviours and im bpd and possibly bp/ schiztoeffctive.

I would talk with a mental health professional. Hope you feel better.

i did sleep very well last night. I am leaving shortly to see my therapist. I feel grrat this morning, but who knows how i will feel in a couple of hours

Kisses, yes, If you feel comfortable with this therapist then do share with him/her about the current rapid cycling - maybe a med tweak is needed. Are you able to get in touch with your pdoc? 5mg of melatonin is a very small dose, can you increase it to see if it helps. Then you could keep the Ativan for high stress/anxiety situations. Just a thought. If your mind won't stop then redirection is a great help along with meditation so that at least you're getting more rest even if it takes a while to get to sleep. progressive muscle relaxation is always a good tool too. I hope you find some ease. hugs

It's great that you'll be in a good program sweetie.... Big hug.....xo