Im new to this. I have been going through a lot through. lately my bipolar has veen so out of control. i couldnt figure out what was wrong. I did see a doctor. I am on medicines. Everything is level. My job is amazing. it is the one place I never want to leave. i know I am actually good at it. but I finally understand what eats at me. the negativity. i have grown up with such a low self esteem. i have tried building it up but the past two years Ive lost a lot in my life. im rebuilding again but there are still negative forces. so I decided to take charge of myself and get rid of those negative people. i truly am scared if my self esteem gets any lower. those negative people think its all about them but Im just trying to survive.