Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Hi everyone. I am new here and just wanted to know how many people here have actually had a psychotic break where they heard voices, or had hallucinations? I heard the voice of "God" and thought I was Jesus for a while. Then thought my boyfriend was Jesus and it stemmed from there. I believed so many ridiculous things and now I am just trying to re-enter this reality. I am suffering major depression now and I have suicidal thoughts. I don't know now to keep myself busy. My brain feels broken.
I believe it was this drug Celexa that caused the break in the first place. I was misdiagnosed and it made me go psychotic for ten weeks. I am just wondering how others cope with coming back to this crappy reality lol. I am at the point where I would rather be crazy and happy then sane and miserable like I am now. I never knew I was bipolar or that Bipolar people could hear voices and go psychotic until it happened to me. I was a schizo. Thought celebrities and the president and other people were sending me secret messages online. Thought I was the savior of the Universe etc.
If it wasn't for my dad and boyfriend I'd probably be on the streets right now. I have extreme social anxiety and I have recently become sort of a hermit. I can barely shower or eat these days. I can barely take care of myself. I don't know HOW I am going to tackle school or going back to work. Or what the heck I even want to do with my pathetic life now. Is anyone else in the same boat?
-Krystal
I believe it was this drug Celexa that caused the break in the first place. I was misdiagnosed and it made me go psychotic for ten weeks. I am just wondering how others cope with coming back to this crappy reality lol. I am at the point where I would rather be crazy and happy then sane and miserable like I am now. I never knew I was bipolar or that Bipolar people could hear voices and go psychotic until it happened to me. I was a schizo. Thought celebrities and the president and other people were sending me secret messages online. Thought I was the savior of the Universe etc.
If it wasn't for my dad and boyfriend I'd probably be on the streets right now. I have extreme social anxiety and I have recently become sort of a hermit. I can barely shower or eat these days. I can barely take care of myself. I don't know HOW I am going to tackle school or going back to work. Or what the heck I even want to do with my pathetic life now. Is anyone else in the same boat?
-Krystal
So yes we are working on a law suit. My dad was going to take them to small claims court because he's worried that we might lose a bigger case then have to pay court fees.
Ele1 you said you were psychotic for a year. How long did the depression last for you? I wish I could just "snap out of it" but I can't :(.
My experience was different in some ways. I never heard voices, but I was convinced I was living in hell. I have chunks of my memory from childhood to that time that I couldn't remember so I thought I was sentenced and had just blocked it like I do so many other things.
Living in hell was difficult for many reasons. I had many "explainations/documentations" that I must be in hell. It was not a good time for me especially when I would do something and someone would have to tell me what I did. Not cool and scary as crap!
My doctor put me on Abilify. It helped. I noticed you are on it. I hope it eventually helps you too. With the help of Abilify and my other meds. I was able to feel the best I can ever remember and the thoughts that I was in hell were gone. I joked with my pdoc about her giving me Abilify because she saw I was losing grip with reality.
Unfortunately I had a negative reaction to Abilify after about 8 months I think. I took myself off of the combination that had made me feel "normal" for the first time ever. Today, I struggle more with depression but I am having some form of life.
As far as returning back to reality-you get a chance to reinvent yourself if you can find a good combination of medications and possibly therapy.
I still have bad days and I am still working on myself, but I am so much healthier than I was even before my breakdown. With the help of therapy especially I have a new insight on life. With the addition of medication, it allows me to be fairly balanced.
I wish you luck!
Cotton Wool around you for a while cos it's good for you too.