Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Hi everyone. I am new here and just wanted to know how many people here have actually had a psychotic break where they heard voices, or had hallucinations? I heard the voice of "God" and thought I was Jesus for a while. Then thought my boyfriend was Jesus and it stemmed from there. I believed so many ridiculous things and now I am just trying to re-enter this reality. I am suffering major depression now and I have suicidal thoughts. I don't know now to keep myself busy. My brain feels broken.
I believe it was this drug Celexa that caused the break in the first place. I was misdiagnosed and it made me go psychotic for ten weeks. I am just wondering how others cope with coming back to this crappy reality lol. I am at the point where I would rather be crazy and happy then sane and miserable like I am now. I never knew I was bipolar or that Bipolar people could hear voices and go psychotic until it happened to me. I was a schizo. Thought celebrities and the president and other people were sending me secret messages online. Thought I was the savior of the Universe etc.
If it wasn't for my dad and boyfriend I'd probably be on the streets right now. I have extreme social anxiety and I have recently become sort of a hermit. I can barely shower or eat these days. I can barely take care of myself. I don't know HOW I am going to tackle school or going back to work. Or what the heck I even want to do with my pathetic life now. Is anyone else in the same boat?
-Krystal
I believe it was this drug Celexa that caused the break in the first place. I was misdiagnosed and it made me go psychotic for ten weeks. I am just wondering how others cope with coming back to this crappy reality lol. I am at the point where I would rather be crazy and happy then sane and miserable like I am now. I never knew I was bipolar or that Bipolar people could hear voices and go psychotic until it happened to me. I was a schizo. Thought celebrities and the president and other people were sending me secret messages online. Thought I was the savior of the Universe etc.
If it wasn't for my dad and boyfriend I'd probably be on the streets right now. I have extreme social anxiety and I have recently become sort of a hermit. I can barely shower or eat these days. I can barely take care of myself. I don't know HOW I am going to tackle school or going back to work. Or what the heck I even want to do with my pathetic life now. Is anyone else in the same boat?
-Krystal
is there anything you enjoy doing at the moment? (probably not) however, if so..try and distract yourself perhaps?
What you just wrote- yeah, so been there
Is your doctor trying to do something to lift your depression though? Can you get a medication review or second opinion?
Of having to take the relevant medications so you can live a day at a time.
This can be a desperate time, as you acclimatise to the outside world, the relationships.....and the niggly feelings about your own interpretations of what it is you felt for your self...inside of your own senses. You got something.
The low will have a tunnel too that seems never-ending. Look after yrself and tell as much as you can to the people that can help you.Starman
It's like you've been blindsided by a car accident or something- it is going to take time to get to grips; especially given your depression. In a way the depression can be as all consuming as the mania, y'know...fuck with your judgement- convince you it's hopeless and will never end etc
Keep your doctor informed how much you are struggling, for one thing.
If you are interested then the book Darkness Visible by William Styron is a brilliant account of a severe depressive episode that captures so well how these things just do lift.
I can't tell you for sure what helps in concert with medication. The last time this happened to me I started taking fish oil supplements, vitamin D & B & Magnesium (good for stressed out peeps) & a supplement called N-acetyl-cysteine- all have some backing as being of use to people with bipolar & I figure it doesn't hurt.
be kind to you & have hope x
Its not! I had to go to three different pdoc's (psychiatrist) till I found one that kept, trying different meds till we found one I function on!
So finally the meds have me hopeful and stable, but I'm so USED to sitting, beating myself up - I need to heal, and re-create a life. I'm not going to stay down, and out. I will fight this, and KNOW - someone is here to remind me it gets better - and the it is ME!
Keep venting here, keep asking for help and med changes till you find some relief, some idea that the pain, suffering and depression to LIFT....
((((BIG HUG))))) I was where you were at, a LONG time - and I'm not now!!!! Let me hand you hope : )
One pdoc over medicated me, 7 high dosage pills - not good..
I am on three now, one in the morning, two at bedtime - I treat them like vitamins, nothing special - Vitamin E, C etc - why not some modern chemistry : ) I'm grateful they are getting smarter and better - all good for me!