To make a long, pointless story short, last week on Wednesday I turned up at a crisis-stabilization unit of my choosing just for... Feelin' like "I can't go on like this", I guess. l: Well anyway I got detoxed from all the mess in my head and finally, I repeat *FINALLY* decided to be open to help from psychiatric medicine, once again.

I was sleepy as hell and grumpy as hell for a little while, Valium didn't really help I guess lolol um but that was only for a couple of days. I'm now on Lithium 300... I think? Twice daily.

And I was reaaaaaally iffy about Lithium in particular from hear-say and just the toxicity of it, dose monitoring, hand tremor, etc. Etc. But guess what? No side effects yet. !! At least, nothing I can't handle. It's slightly sedating but keep in mind too that I'm severely addicted to caffeine and they don't give you that at CSU. At least not at Viewpoint.

The bad news is that I got formally denied for SSI benefits because apparently I'm capable of performing "work-related activities" (the hell?) so I'm going to have to see a judge, which is sorta disheartening. But oh well. Nothin' I can do about it right now.

I brought my math text book and study notes in with me to study for my Compass exam retake, but between the meds, environment, and no caffeine, it wasn't really in the cards for me. But I'm probably gonna retake that this week.

Everyone there was cool, though. Overall nice crowd, made some cool new buds, had us a few laughs.

The Lithium seems to be reducing my suicidal thoughts and cutting thoughts. It's too early to tell, but I just am not really... Even thinking along those lines anymore, and my anger-streak has hushed up a little. Heh.

So I guess that's about it. Feelin' pretty optimistic at this point, and although I still have my issues, I'm really proud of myself for accepting help and sticking with it, and not complaining too much.

So what's new around here?