I've had a morning or two where I felt "jittery", but this morning when I woke up anxiety had decided to have a seat on my chest and just sort of stare at me impishly. Got my mind racing a bit... scanning the body for the all the physical signs... brain bouncing about trying to figure out why it's here. The usual.
Then things changed a bit. I did some deep breathing exercises and tried to disengage the thinking. I got up and took my morning meds, upping the prn from hydroxizine to clonazepam, and got going about my morning routine... let the animals out, made some coffee, journaled. Between all of the that I noticed the anxiety had started to disipate... and that's even before the clonazepam has started to kick in. So, yay me! I have ideas why it's showing up (not an awesome night's sleep is one), but I have an IOP group today and I can hit up my therapist with a phone call to talk it through, plus solicit thoughts from you lovely people.
So, we had bats in our eaves this summer, which probably means they were in the attic too. Got the first estimate to get the bats excluded from the house and... ouch. And then there was the ball-park figure for doing a remediation of the attic (replace insulation, fumigate, etc)... double ouch + 1. So, that caused a fair amount of stress yesterday afternoon.
On top of that, we're supposed to be heading up to mountains for a long weekend this weekend and, here I am, less than a month out of hospital. I've got realy mixed feelings about this. On the one hand I think it will be awesome and relaxing. One the other hand, I think it means I'm out of my safe place just when I feel my level of anxiety creeping up a bit. What to do, what to do? I don't want to just give in to the anxious feelings like I've done in the past and cancel the trip (and dissapoint everyone else), but I also don't want to get up there and "freak out". Thoughts, anyone? I've got another couple days to figure out this out, and another couple of places to reach out for input.
TL;DR; had some morning anxiety, dealing with it okay. Stressors in life, weekend trip planned... more anxiety. What to do, what to do?
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