Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
one of the many names i have for the loss of focus and intrusive thoughts which are often my first signal that i am sliding into a psychotic episode is, "MANIC FISSURING." my visualizations of "fissuring" are from geology. "a long, narrow opening or line of breakage made by cracking or splitting, especially in rock or earth." with the psych phenom i am attempting to describe, i feel as though my thoughts and/or senses are fissuring similar to how water from a garden hose may fissure through a dry lawn.
by whatever name, i've been experiencing this phenom intensely in the last week or so. i believe it is directly connected to the last day of school for the two elder foster kids. half a day tomorrow and that is the official end of kindergarten and third grade for this dynamic duo. what do you mean i don't get to sing "revelle" thursday morning? it's the only family tradition we have managed to establish in our short and stormy time together. this will be our 2nd summer vacation together. we don't count summer of 2020 as a vacation. why has been on all the global newsfeeds.
as i have plied therapy tools to the manic fissures, my "quiet voice" is whispering that fissuring is both natural and okay with any transition. the old needs to fissure away into the new.
reality checks requested. am i making any sense?
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
Is it anxiety over trying to figure a new routine once school ends or a trigger from the past? What can you do to calm the fissure? I imagine you have some coping tools you have used in the past. Maybe plan some easy activities that will keep the kiddos busy and allow you some time to just breathe.
Offering steadying support.
I can see what you are saying, and I'm impressed with your ability to acknowledge the full surround of the mind's work to manage all of it calmly.
Here's to finding the balance that works for your well-being.
Life can be torture and for me I don’t understand why it maybe part of our nature. I hope you feel better real soon and hope you get to focus on the good stuff. I don’t know if there’s one answer except maybe to just keep on keeping on. Peace.
onward through the fissurey fog. , ,
it's a dandy tool for professional development, too.