Has your participation here helped any? This is only your second post. If you have gotten even the slightest modicum of relief from those two posts, it could be worth a try to keep working this step to see where it takes you. Starting a therapy journal could be worth a try, as well. Just a thought. ^It^ remains yours to sort.

For what it's worth
The in-patient stays which I cooperated with really did help me to stabilize and establish a program to help me toward a more healthy lifestyle. My psychoses(pl) were/are far more dangerous than any flu bug. I do, however, wonder if my strictly personal psychoses(pl) are meaner than the collective germaphobic psychoses(pl) of Coronaville. At least *I know* that I am bat shit crazy. Is there anything more dangerous than nutjobs in denial with license to declare marshal law?

True I’ve only been on here for 2 days, possibly I’ll give it more time. I just really don’t like being this out of control but I’ll keep trying with baby steps for now. It’s good to hear in-patient can be a positive experience.

Nor would I try to promote being out of control as an okay thing. Lending you a cyber-shoulder to lean on while you regain your balance. Easy does it.

Gentle support while you decide which path is best for you, just for today.

The more you write in a private journal, the more you express the thoughts that are weighing on your mind, the easier it will be to let go of the part that feels out of control.

Best wishes.

I think a lot of us are anxious and on edge. I know I am. My doctor also suggested hospitalization, but with my low immunity I would be terrified of catching the virus and other things.

I am awful at journaling. What really helps me is guided journals. You can find them on amazon fairly cheap. Just type in anxiety journal. These journals guide your thinking patterns and behaviors.

Also, set aside time if you can and let your family know this is your time for health and relaxation. Find something you like to do. Art, meditation, hot bath, music or what ever relaxes you. I use insight timer for guided meditations related to anxiety and depression. There is a free version of this App.

Another helpful technique is to set aside an hour each day for worry. Write down as many things that you can that make you anxious during this time. Then later go back and see how to resolve or challenge those thoughts. Also you can get a lot of support here at DS. Hope you feel better soon.

I would personally advise you to speak to your doctor. We can pm if you’d like to know some more of my thoughts, but that’s a start.

Star.