I'm going out tonight for my good friend's 30th birthday. It's only been a couple days since I decided to quit drinking and I probably should skip the party but I don't want to disappoint my friend. It's a BYOB so I figured if I don't bring anything I won't drink. Only problem is that they want to go to the bar after the party. I'm really going to try tonight. I promised my dad that I wouldn't drink. I'm going to try to keep that promise. I'm just afraid that I'm going to break that promise..
This isn't exactly a medical site but after reading Alfie's post on the positives of mental illness I thought this might be of interest. Seems most of the achievements and advances in the world were made by people with a mental illness. Not sure I want all the super powers though like better memory. Lots of stuff I'd rather forget...
Fuck it I'm tired of feeling this way. I self harmed exescivly by cutting myself over and over. My arms and legs are covered in blood and all I want to do is to kill myself and die. I have gone over the edge with this bullshit and dont want it anymore. I'm really tired and I feel like a fucking loser. Fuck this hurts so much I need help