arthursmum

Havent been on in what feels like a million years.  Dating a wonderful man who is actually MY NEIGHBOR hahah. How weird is that. My meds seem to be on the right track.  I've had to give up drinking...

I'm so rediculously heart broken. I don't understand how the ex can seem to move on so easily. I try not to think about it during the day but everything reminds me of him. Someone told me that the...

Was doing pretty well - evrey now and again I have the obsessive thoughts that I might harm someone but normally it's like a memory of a thought or like I'm on the outside looking in. It just feels...

I normally am so strong but I'm just so tired of being strong. I'm mentally tired of doing this day in and day out. I'm pissed that the bf threw in the towel for reasons that make no sense. I just...

So I blew off the wedding I was supposed to go to today. Feel kind of bad but I just don't want to be around work people let alone a lot of people and feel the need to be "on".  Its thunderstorming...

I think it's over. part of me is so sad and part of me is so relieved. I don't know how to lean on a man I'm with and now I don't have to - is that selfish?

Feeling better in general throughout the day. The obsessive thoughts are not as bad as they were, but they are still there. But when I wake up is probably the worst. Unfortunately I think I have...

Well - turns out I had a panik attack yesterday afternoon. That pretty much ix-nayed the idea of goig to group therapy. I took an Ativan and it helped tremendously - per the dr's orders. Did well...

Mentally feeling much better than I did yesterday and last night. I confessed everything I've been thinking to my mom who didn't freak out like I thought she would. I found a group that meets near me...

going to start zoloft today. I can only hope it helps.

Was doing ok yesterday and most of today, but then anxiety set in at dinner time. Started having obsessive thoughts right in the middle of family dinner. I don't understand how it seems like nothing...

well - I'm past my due date and oh well. I am pissed that the doofuses who flipped my house didn't put much energy into the cosmetic stuff and I'm having to redo everything. The spilled paint all...

So here I am every day thinking I'm going to go nuts and hurt myself or someone else. Well Saturday night my INFURIATING, DRUNKEN, HORDING, POTHEAD, NON TAX PAYING neighbor decided at midnight that...

I don't know how other people live their lives and are ok. It's so hard to convince myself I'm not going crazy anymore. The sad part is I feel dead calm like I'm resigned to the fact that I'm going...

Having obtrusive thoughts - debating sleeping at my mother's tonight. Looking for some support.