Patswife

I will be 60 in 45 minutes.Went to our daughters tonight, I thought for a bbq, but both girls had arranged a surprise party for my 60th birthday. Another first, no beloved hubby Pat to share it with...

I'm done with this new journey, I want my old life back. I want my beloved Pat back.This is no life.

I found a penny todayjust laying on the groundBut it's not just a pennythis little coin I've found "Found" pennies come from heaventhat's what my Grampa told meHe said angels toss them downoh, how I...

I want my Pat back.I am so sad.

I'm a mess.I am trying to go thru paper work as income tax is due the end of the month then I find a special note from Pat and I break down.Chatted with my oldest friend of almost 55 years today, she...

I am seeing a councellor next Thursday, guess she deals with what I am going thru.There is one on one councelling for as long as I want/need it then there are support groups but not until you are 3...

I took our dog Amie for a walk today, my neighbour came too, this was a big step for me.

NO ONE SHOULD EVER HAVE TO GO THRU THIS PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a mess, I admit it. I cry all the time, I seem fine then the water starts. Our girls are wonderful.I can't sleep, I finally took half a gravol this AM, ativan doesn't help. I can wake up 3 times...

We chose a venue for Pat's Party.The building is on the beach, we want people to come in holiday attire and we will have pina coladas. Pat so wanted to be on a warm beach with me drinking pina...

I am broken.Pat, I love you more than life. You will always be in my heart, I thank God for getting you thru surgery so we were able to tell you how much we love you and that we will always love you....

The infection is called c-diff.Thank you for all the emails and words of support, we have a long road of recovery ahead of us.

It is 430 AM and I am just home.Scarey call from a Social Worker at 8 AM to say Pat was not breathng well.Long story short, he is septic, full of poison. He had his colon removed tonight along with 6...

Thanks for all the hugs.He has a tube in his gut thru his nose.Steroids, 2 antibiotics, morphine and gravol.Probably there til Thursday.

I cried all the way home from the hospital an hour ago, Pat does not deserve all that he has been dealt in life. I can't understand why he suffers with so many illnesses. (is that a real word?) I...