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Tonight just sucks i cant write much but i think im having a manic episode tonight :(

So my husband and I have had our problems with my sexuality but out of the blue he started supporting it and likening it. He suggested a three way, I can't spell the formal French word :) I felt iffy...

My husband is really involved in the church to where I know I just dont belong, most days i just dont go. I went this morning and i honestly can not remember what i learned. Then after church we...

Got back from camping, it was a blast except for the hangover and i didnt take any of my thyroid pills because i was drinking so much :-). not the smartest thing to do i suppose. Ive been better...

well, dropping out of college was my decision, i felt not ready to begin with and i do not want to waste my money taking random classes until i decide what to do. yes, my family is giving me some...

All of my life and of my peers, we are told to stay in school and get a high school diploma then go off to college and make something of ourselves. I finally get there with the great money of working...

Tonight my Fiance and I went out and meet more people our age. It was very fun and the party we were at was a blast. Im so happy and glad for answered prayers. God takes care of his children always....

Well i had a moment with Dan last night he drove me insane so i had to cut, it's just how i deal with my crazy ness. I endded up cutting along my neck and i scared the  s*** out of Dan. He was not...

So after being mad at Dan n all i went sprinting from the car on a path in the park, he of course chased after me then i collapsed from an asthma attack. This was the boy i fell in love with, he...

well, most of my life I was abused mentally, emotionally, and verbally. I really do not want to admit physically cause its still hard for me to admit to that. I have been having such great times in...

I just want to go throu life with out feeling the emptyness, saddness, and abandoness. I do feel deserted, fucked up, and i know that my family doesnt really understand me much at all. i cant wait to...

i called to set up an appointment w a mental health Dr. but my insurance i know will not cover it it never covered anything so i gave up on using it. The price i can not afford being in college and...

I have no idea and i hate how i seem to be depressed all the time one moment ill be in a happy bubble but just the smallest thing will make sad to the point where i really want to die. I wish i could...

i really suck at my first year in college. i miss my old friends, a year mark is comming up on my best friend's death. I cant go a month w/out cutting. I feel so despreate now i feel like im just...

Im really excited now :-) im getting married i have two jobs in this tough econmy i am a full time student at IUN :-) life is okay now