not good

Well i had a moment with Dan last night he drove me insane so i had to cut, it's just how i deal with my crazy ness. I endded up cutting along my neck and i scared the  s*** out of Dan. He was not happy at all, I gave him the power or the decession if I need to go to the ER then take me, he hasnt yet. Im not sure if thats a wonderful thing or very bad. Course I have no money for about the next five days, and no health insurance until i marry Dan. We get over our little battles n fights nothing big. I feel at the end and kind of tired of it somedays I think oh i am not going to do this again, but seven years latter i keep saying that saddly.....