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   So..................this is the new me:    As yuu can tell, my hair is shorter and now dark brown, this is my senior pic. and i am head over heels in love with an amazing guy who puts the...

hmm, shanes back in GR, im terrified of getting anywhere near him..i'm so ready to be rid of the horrible things hes put me through, but will they come flooding back into my head if i DO see him?? i...

 my parents, mom especially keep hinting that im a failure. i beleive them. how could i not be? im a junior, ive failed three classes that need to be made up before a can graduate. no matter how...

my new meds made a big difference, i feel WAY happier. But...most of all, my friends:   T- thank you for being here for me, u stuck by me when i was at an all time low. Amy- U are my best friend,...

im done cutting ^.^ i officially quit!!! however i havent been that good at updating it...AH, o well lol >.

her parents think my family is insane for wanting to talk to my best friend with a therapist to work out problems between us, and now im not allowed to hang out with my best friend EVER...

im traped inside a fake world in my head, im happy...but its fake...i try to cry but no matter what i do the tears never come, im trapped, im lonely, im unwanted...whats wrong with me? all i want to...

i feel numb...i cant think, i cant sleep, i cant eat...i've been depressed...but not like this, i have no idea what im doing anymore, i walked out of the house and didnt even realize it, i have no...

im such a failure, i got my exam scores back and i failed math and almost history too...i cant do anything right, my life is pointless, with grades like mine i wont go to college or even pass...

wow, so my mom freaks out cuz of the stress shes under, starts yelling at everyone while were making dinner, i asked a question about how many tomatos we needed cut and she flips out, starts yelling...

my favorite song by Hollywood Undead... i've been listening to it over and over and over... it's called 'pain'...   The necks of this youth, with their necks through this noose were told lies like...

im useless, i cant seem to do anything right...not with my friends...not with my family...not with anyone...kill me now.

it was cool this morning, so i put on his hoddie, the one he loved to see me wear...it smelled like him, i am afraid i will loose his smell forever!i have already forgotten, how he smiled after we...

i started cleaning my room today, i was up there for about an hour, i broke down...the feeling was so sudden, i was listening to music, cleaning and all of a sudden i found myself currled in a ball...

i herd it again on my ipod, i shuffled the songs and it played, i was taking exams and i started crying, god, i miss him so much, i havent talked to him for over a month. i dont even kno if he is...