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wow, so my mom freaks out cuz of the stress shes under, starts yelling at everyone while were making dinner, i asked a question about how many tomatos we needed cut and she flips out, starts yelling...

my favorite song by Hollywood Undead... i've been listening to it over and over and over... it's called 'pain'...   The necks of this youth, with their necks through this noose were told lies like...

im useless, i cant seem to do anything right...not with my friends...not with my family...not with anyone...kill me now.

it was cool this morning, so i put on his hoddie, the one he loved to see me wear...it smelled like him, i am afraid i will loose his smell forever!i have already forgotten, how he smiled after we...

i started cleaning my room today, i was up there for about an hour, i broke down...the feeling was so sudden, i was listening to music, cleaning and all of a sudden i found myself currled in a ball...

i herd it again on my ipod, i shuffled the songs and it played, i was taking exams and i started crying, god, i miss him so much, i havent talked to him for over a month. i dont even kno if he is...

i felt like cutting sp i started to draw, im really happy with what i drew and i feel better too ^.^

i love drawing, its like an alternative to cutting

ugh, i cut again a couple days ago...and im trying to stop, i dont kno what to do!

It's Funny how fakea smile can beand no one noticesthe pain beneathit.Outside I'm smilingbutInside I'm dying. 

why do i feel this way? i cant seem to understand it...im going crazy... 

today is the first time i've been happy since he moved away, i still miss him terribly, but im getting through it...and im going away for the weekend, i dont kno if i will wake up in the middle of...

my life sux...i dont kno wut im doing nemore...i dont feel like i can talk to my friends because it makes them uncomfortable...wut am i supposed 2 do?? when im at school my friends try to make me...

Heyoo :)This is really just another update. Just to let everyone know, I moved to South Carolina (from Michigan) with my husband :) and we now have our own apartment. We are looking to get a dog...