my life sux...i dont kno wut im doing nemore...i dont feel like i can talk to my friends because it makes them uncomfortable...wut am i supposed 2 do?? when im at school my friends try to make me smile, but they dont understand, i smile anyway...a fake smile, then i walk away without a word and cry...no 1 cares, no 1 understands... it doesnt matter if im on anti-depressents, it doesnt make a difference...i still have to put a fake smile on my face to get away, some times i want to crawl into a hole and die...i've thought about suicide sooooo many times i've lost count, i've even cut myself to take away pain...but its only temporary as soon as the pain comes back- suicide comes back...i feel like i am trapped in a dark pit all alone and no matter how loud i scream and cry, no 1 cares...