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It's been about 2 weeks now and my journal entries are growing farther apart.  I know this is not good as it means that I am not documenting this painful moment and will block out how I was feeling....

So today has been a normal day.  I still think of my Ex all day but the emotions are starting to change. I am shocked I ran into one of her friends today and nothing was revisited in my head.  I...

Woke up this morning around 3am listened to music started drinking then found myself crying.  I am so mad at myself for not being able to let go. I am even more mad that I know she was no good for...

Woke up and my friend cooked breakfast.  That was kind of her, she then went to church and I went off to Starbucks where I have been for 2 hours working on my computer.  I am starting to feel...

Met with my daugter today to support her in her first business en devour.  She is 18 and trying Multi Level Marketing.  I spent 3 hours with her and her mom.  It's amazing I see her mom as a...

Today a friend took me out to dinner.  She is so nice I wish there was chemistry between us but she is like a sister.  I feel bad that I have no feelings for her in a sexual way because she is an...

I texed her and she replied right back.  She made it a point to tell me she no longer wants me to call her or text her.  She said I am a weak man.  I did have a chance to tell her that I forgive...

Today I came back from a 2 day stay at Atlantic City NJ.  I went there to force myself to do things without my ex.  I was feeling bad all day and had slept the morning away.  On the way home I...

April 23 was a down day I opened at 5:00am, I came home at 8pm after going to laundry then slept to 4am and back to work.

Last night I drove to Atlantic City NJ to go to the Casino.  I booked a room for 2 days.  The room is an Ocean View.  I came down because this is where we used to come together when we needed a...

I met her 2 years ago this month.  She had no money so I took her Easter shopping for her daughter.  I never celebrated holidays as an adult but I celebrated from that day until now.  I miss her...

Today I feel better.  I have opened up and I am being honest to anyone who has asked me whats wrong with me.  Two subordinates asked me today what was wrong and I explained that me and my Fiance...

Today a Co Worker took me out.  We went to see a movie and we went to dinner.  She treated me and that was diffferent.  She did it without wanting nothing in return and she let me vent the whole...