May 9 2014

It's been about 2 weeks now and my journal entries are growing farther apart.  I know this is not good as it means that I am not documenting this painful moment and will block out how I was feeling.  I am having feelings for someone else but it is because she is so nice and she is so like minded.  However my dedication to my ex is strong and I loved my relationship.  I don't want to tarnish my memories by jumping in the bed with someone a month after being with someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.  It's hard to explain to people considering she has pissed all over what we had.