1st Trip Without Her
Last night I drove to Atlantic City NJ to go to the Casino. I booked a room for 2 days. The room is an Ocean View. I came down because this is where we used to come together when we needed a get-away. I was perfectly fine until I pulled up to the Casino. Once I got there I couldn't control my emotions all I broke down thinking to myself I can't believe I will be making these trips without her. What's even worst is I realized she would be making these trips without me.
I now understand that this was her way of living long before I met her, but all the consolation in the world from others can't seem to remove the pain. I often ask myself what I could have done different but everyone tells me I could not have done anything different. Her Best friends tell me to start my life without her and never let her back in my life to hurt me again. I have stopped reaching out to her but it still hurts like hell.
I look forward to the day that I can understand how I loved someone who gave me so little in return.
I now understand that this was her way of living long before I met her, but all the consolation in the world from others can't seem to remove the pain. I often ask myself what I could have done different but everyone tells me I could not have done anything different. Her Best friends tell me to start my life without her and never let her back in my life to hurt me again. I have stopped reaching out to her but it still hurts like hell.
I look forward to the day that I can understand how I loved someone who gave me so little in return.
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