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What can I say? This month is special. It's been exactly 10 years since I've been diagnosed with bipolar. And it has been one long ride. So many episodes and hospitalizations later, I really can't...

Here I am thinking to myself, How did I get to this point?...This past week I joined the eating disorders support group. I realize that I have been having issues with my weight for a long time....

You I thought I'd come to you with what's left in my heartAfter its all been done there's one last thing I have to sayYou know I'll be missing you along the wayBut I won't shed a tearBecause once I...

I feel silly for crying, and I wonder if there's anyone who could understand...My ex has a new girlfriend. Last night I went to a party and for the first time I saw them together... I'm talking...

I found out last month. My friend who broke the news says that I'm a lot stronger  than ever. But sometimes it feels like I'm not. Sometimes I just want to cry.Anyway, it's about my ex. He has a new...

I feel like he and I are finally in a good place. Just friends. But still good. I think about the past a lot...more than I should actually. But all my thinking has at last brought me to a measure of...

This past weekend I saw some old friends, and it was oh so good. I needed to see some friendly faces from outside this crowded town that I live in. They were happy to see me too, which I loved.After...

Here's a poem I wrote for a wedding:You're my kind of beautiful that I have fallen forIt's in my eyes, my endless love for youTo love someone like you, I could not ask for moreYou stayed on my mind...

I give up on this goal forever.

I strongly believe in bible reading and in prayer to get thru every single day. I understand that many people out there are skeptical about God and religion. But it has been my lifeline in enduring...

With just one word, a difference was made deep within the person I am; which, now, I can define.There is someone who keeps complimenting me from left to right. At first the sweet things he said were...

I know it'll be painful. I know it'll be sad. I know that it'll bring a silence over me for the rest of the night. Still, here I am. Maybe that's the problem: I throw myself into situations that I...

Tonight felt like an empty, barren space. I was with friends, but I was lonely. Was it because most of my friends are paired off? Is it because my ex-boyfriend was sitting next to me, or when he went...

So far so good, but still working very hard on my part; can't change him.

This spring break is the anniversary of when a friend of mine passed away. Although, I can't really say that I knew him. He was a high school classmate, I had only one conversation with him that I...