StillBill

But then , it's only Monday. . . 

I usually go outside just before bedand spend a few minutes looking at the night skyI sometimes raise my arms up to the sky  and hope the neighbors aren't looking ; ]  there is a cosmic mystery...

I am weak I wish I couldwill myself to feel better wait, I can wait, can I       

This is not the right waywhat the fuck  Man I'm staring at the fucking mapit's right in front of my FACE ! what again am I doing heredon't wanna be heredon't wanna be next to herefuck it  woah,...

something is wrong I am uneasythe breeze is picking up the trees are frightened leaves are dancing over me a playful warning of what is coming Is that blue smoke creeping over the...

- pretty damn skippy there Jingles. got my feet on the ground, well, mostly.going to be medicationized soon and that shit fucking blanks out  a lot of the good stuff. But that's cool man, I'm...

I am encouraged by my good nature today. I will savor every careless moment, as if it will never come again. 

You'd think I'd be used to it by now - must say thoughI'm better than before  you know it doesn't come over me likefuck man, I mean . . . -used to be much darker Jesus, God, be with me  maybe....

OK man, Lets just turn the page on yesterday and focus on making me smile ,  or  . . . it'll come Willie boy . . . .be nice  . . 

Whatz a guy to do  ? I'm sitting here in my jammies right ?  Not a problem in the world  when -  like a lighting bolt striking a nuclear projectile - I am freaking momentarily  blinded by. . . ....

There are so many people who feel so alone, as I do,but sharing true friendship will bring us all closer to the light

 . things.. . . .   Man, no one seems to want to chat. . .Makes mefeel bad.    God I hate saying thatBut ,   "and I know this part well",  it is what it is . . .and it isn't what I need I'm...

This is getting interesting. All you people  just as wired as I am.