hell17691

iv started to have majour blackouts iv had them for 3 years and they were really small time now its like allmost ever day its annoying and scares me i keep going from docters to docters but there nt...

The life that goes onit welcomes me back my old friend the steel pain and the red line that follows this time its harsh and scary the cold embraces me  and so i fall and taste the cold...

it has been shit but iv been putting a smile over it and its gone shit so its fcked up am tired and hungry so am feeling like crap today :( but am getting on with it x

it been good butthe urges are hurting i just want them to stop it hurts :(

so far am 8 weeks its feeling good i'v had the odd erge to cut but am winning yey i feel good xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

finally my thoughts about cutting myself are going away i feel more better and alive lol nt funny but its going well hope i keep it up xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

iv finaly stopped cutting my self for a week now and its going gr8 my friends are paying an intrest and its sunny am happy i hope it continues this way. Because i'm loving it...

Where ever you may read thisno matter how fari need to know how you feelbreaking my lonely heart but don't worry it'll all be okatleast i had you for one whole dayBut you've got to look up at the...

I'm going downdownlike the captain of a sinking ship all hands on deck are you ready for thisi'm ready for thisFIREthis ship is going downI loved you like a brotherI loved you like a friend in the...

so i havn't been on this site in along time and am very sorry i wish i could keep up with everyone but so far lifes going great ofcourse there are the little everday annonces that annoy me but thats...

so ofcourse this is a long over due journal entry lol well lets start off with iv been very down but just about life stuff like not getting a job or into collage but other than that days have been...

well has of today iv had my hair cut off thanks to my brother playing around with a lighter and aerosol so now hav short heair i am so pissed off at him then i find out from my ex thee most sweetest...

so iv split up with my gf i love her to bits she's the women who lightens my day andbreaking up with her is the baddest dection i could have ever done bu ti moved away and it was for the best she...

today am writing and telling for the first time i hear i  voice when i cut i call him josh even tho its my voice i hear he tells me the truth and hurts me telling me how worthless i am sometimes...