missingtrevor

Hello everyone I don't know if you will remember me, I'm Marylou and I have been very busy and thought I would stop in to say hi.  My Trevor loved shooting and I started going to the range about a...

Well, I must say, I feel much better today, I really needed you all and as usual, you all came through, I can only hope I am able to give support to any one of you.Yesterday, I cried a lot at work, I...

I was off the grid for one full week, I stewarded and announced at the Malamute Club of America National Dog show.Well, I was so busy, I didn't have time to be sad, now that I'm home, I feel...

Last night I finally slept all the way through, without getting up and having the pain in my heart for Trevor.  I can't believe how I feel, almost guilty to feel so good.

It's been a while since I logged in, the 1st year approaches and I have anxiety and pain.  I have spent this time wondering about what Trevor thought and felt.  I know he was in a lot of pain, his...

Well, we had our first picnic since we lost Trevor, it was wonderful.  the weather couldn't have been better.I light a candle each morning at Trevor's urn/picture, I found 6 more wonderful candles...

I feel much better today, it is so good to have FMO, being able to journal and get the sweet replies, that guide me through this.

All this past week I have been thinking sad about Trevor, I always think of him every day and this past week I have been consumed.  I hope this passes.  Each morning I light a candle next to his...

Well, as usual the support I got from all of you brought me into a better frame of thought.  It means so much to be able to express feelings, to the moms that know... I'm going to have a good...

I'm sad today, I awoke with feelings of grief for Trevor, I hope I feel better soon 

Today will be our first Dog Training Class in the Park.  My students are very excited to begin.  I think Trevor will be watching us.  He loved helping me with my classes. 

Well, my day and tiger lillies are starting to pop up, Trevor brought them to our home about 6 years ago, they should really take hold now, it takes about that long for lillies to get a firm hold....

Well, it was 8 weeks ago I had my knee replaced, I am back to work and for the first time I feel so much better and I notice it. I also spoke to a somewhat co-worker from another lab and she got me...

Well, I'm coming into my 3rd week post op.  I finally feel I'm making improvements.  

Hearing all the kindness has helped me to start my week more positive.  I light a candle each morning and evening at Trevor's urn.  I will take today with a feeling of happy.  Thinking of a...