June 9th 2013

All this past week I have been thinking sad about Trevor, I always think of him every day and this past week I have been consumed.  I hope this passes. 
 
Each morning I light a candle next to his urn.
 
I actually started crying.  I know many of my sisters here go through this too, so I'm guessing this is normal for our abnormal situation. 
 
It feels good to just be able to say what is on my mind, knowing it's not falling on deaf ears...



 

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MichaelsMom21
MichaelsMom21

I find that I cry every evening, although they are small tears. However like last night the tears and aching pain was there.
When will this stop.
My heart goes out to you.
Love
Laura
babiboismom
babiboismom

This is a soft place to fall knowing the moms here can relate to what you are feeling. We will always listen....we will always care.
ter1
ter1

I think I cried almost constantly for months. Then after about 10 months it let up a little. By the time it was a year I didn\'t cry every day but still many days. Now after two years I cry only occasionally but the sorrow is still there. A constant companion but now I also feel Jason as a constant companion. I feel his presence more now than I did shortly after his passing. Don\'t know why that is.

That is what my grieving has been like but as I know you know, we all grieve differently and there is no right or wrong time for anything.

Sending big tight hugs,
Terry
Robin4
Robin4

I\'ve learned that every emotion is normal for a grieving mother. I\'m glad you journal and feel good after. That\'s the entire purpose of this group, to heal and continue our lives helping each other along the way. Much love. Robin
RememberKala
RememberKala

Yep, all is \"normal\" in our abnormal world....

Tightest of hugs dear one~~
NoraMc
NoraMc

you said a mouthful,,,, normal for this abnormal situation,,,,, so true,,, let those tears flow,,,, you\'ll always have more tomorrow.....
BinkyH
BinkyH

The first year, I cried so much that I thought I surely made a new river. The second year, I became numb. The third year, it sank in and I started to learn that hated but necessary word \"acceptance\". I am here for you every step of the way.
Peace.