amelah
Status: trying to keep my head above water
About Me
hungry, angry, lonely, tired, anxious, depressed, unemployed, broke, atheist. Mom passed away in June. She had dementia, serious mental health issues & was a Narcissistic Parent. She had numerous addictions. It had always been about her needs. I have 2 Narcissistic Sisters who have denied me from having any power in the family. Painful doesn\'t begin to describe it. Meanwhile, I struggle with finding meaning in my own life & my identity -- separate from those who define me. I have no idea who to be when I grow up, except I am grown up. No family of my own. and I am frightened. The one thing I have going for me is that I am now 3 years free of cigarettes. The addiction still challenges me, especially during times of intense stress & emotionality. Which seems to be an ongoing event ... LoL ;)
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amelah sent a hug to thegobetween
Hoping your move went well. Caught up on a few of your recent journal entries (I think they're the most recent? LOL). How I relate. Thank you for sharing your process here. ((HUGS)) -
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amelah commented on thegobetween's journal Old and new
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amelah commented on thegobetween's journal The packing begins...
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amelah commented on thegobetween's journal New DS
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Ah, I see the family is alive and unwell. Except for you -- You sound Great! Glad you found a therapist to help give insight into some of those cobwebs! Sorry I've been out of touch. Crawled back here to find DS radically changed. I don't get notificati -
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Hope you are well? I replied to your last journal entry. I'm not sure how DS works anymore. Crawled back here and poking my head in. Sigh. -
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amelah commented on vjewel's journal Embracing Polarity
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amelah sent a hug to thegobetween
Thank you for replying to my Journal. DS has changed and I don't seem to get notifications anymore. Not sure if I have the patience to figure this out. I hope you are well <3 -
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amelah commented on amelah's journal How to Change?
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amelah commented on amelah's journal a New Year, a New You
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amelah commented on Pitstop's journal Another family party, another narc fest!
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amelah commented on Pitstop's journal Another family party, another narc fest!
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amelah sent a hug to thegobetween
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amelah commented on thegobetween's journal House move
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amelah commented on thegobetween's journal House move
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4 Years Cigarette...So why am I depressed? HALT: Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired.Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes.Nothing changes. I don't... -
Dog Ear this Page...Unhealthy thoughts vs. Reparenting Statements (as posted on Coda Board):Unhealthy thought: I am...
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Need to keep this...I HAVE FOUND THAT THERE IS only one thing that heals every problem, and that is: to love yourself. When...
