joybells

I haven't written anything for quite awhile.A lot has been going on with me.I'm recovering from a suicide attempt back in December.There has been so much stress in my life and I couldn't handle...

I am feeling ok today.I no longer want to leave this world.Once again I have met a man who asked me for money.I am tired of this.I have decided I don't need a man and I am happier without one.My...

I tried to tell my mom today that I wanted to take a bottle or 2 of pills but she didn't understand me.I went up to her house to eat and we started talking and I told her I want to take these pills...

I feel so horrible right now.Things are awful for me.I have a bottle of pills and I want to take them.I am hurting so much right now.The pain is awful and I don't want to feel it anymore.

Things are awful.I miss my daughter and granddaughter so much.Things aren't going so well with my boyfriend either.He asked me for a large amount of money and I knoe he will leave me if he doesn't...

It has really been awhile since I have been here.Things have not been going well for me.My daughter is going to have my first grandbaby in 4 weeks but my daughter wants nothing to do with me.Why that...

I think I'm going to have trouble with my meds again.I have trouble taking the generic form of the meds I am on because they don't work for me.I am on seroquel,geodon and vistiril.This time the drug...

I'm feeling better today.I got 2 nights of sleep and I think my med adjustment is starting to work.I hate the roller coaster of BP.The lows can be so bad for me.It's been a long time since I've felt...

I'm feeling a little better.I was able to sleep last night.I had a med adjustment last thursday and I'm hoping it levels my mood out.It's been a long time since I've felt such extreme lows.I don't...

I threw the pills I wanted to take away.I am hoping these feelings will pass.They have before.I've been having an awful week.I haven't been sleeping either.My doctor gave me a med adjustment and I am...

I feel horrible.I just want to end it all.I think I lost someone I love very much and I'm feeling horrible.

I'm feeling better than I was this morning.I am still a little depressed but it's better than it was.My mom wanted me to go to an Easter dinner with her but I didn't feel like doing that.I haven't...

I'm not feeling so well.I went out to the mental health clinic yesterday and was fortunate enough to see my doctor.I'm just so depressed.I thought I needed a medicine adjustment but I don't think it...

It's been quite a long time since I've written anything.I have moved in with my mom.It's going well.We get along and it saves me money.It's been a little stressful at times because mom is starting to...

I am getting ready to move.In 2 weeks I'll be moving in with my mom.My doctors seem to think it's a good idea.I just wish the move was over and I was settled in.I don't mind living with my mom.We get...