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It's going to be a good weekend. 

Well in 2 days I will have a full year of sobriety.  I am doing well. I have a job that I actually like to go to. Crazy but I work 55-60 hours a week and I drive 45 minutes each way. I am on my way...

Well in 2 days I will have a full year of sobriety.  I am doing well. I have a job that I actually like to go to. Crazy but I work 55-60 hours a week and I drive 45 minutes each way. I am on my way...

Today was a good day. I spent the afternoon helping the new neighbor put brakes on one of their minivans. They run a daycare out of their home.  He is 64 and has Parkinsons very bad and shakes all...

Done drinking! It desroyed my life. Smoking is next. Today I talked to one of my favorate advisors at the treatment center I'm going to. My insurrance is not wanting to pay for treatment because I...

My ex told me I needed to get back on antabuse. Now she is saying she is ok with me not taking it. I feel like I need to take it. Back on it Monday.

How ironic. I was just looking through my movies and was thinking about watchin Napolean Dynamite. I decided not to and changed the channel and what do you know, it's on Comedy Central. I guess it...

Well I'm starting to feel a bit normal. Monday I have to get back on the antibuse. I'm kinda scared because it made me feel so sick before.I have been feeling pretty bad. I drank once and it seams to...

Today I am feeling very weak. I am going to call my doctor and get back on antibuse. It puts such a fear in me. Just not feeling strong.

Well I got a report from Arapahoe House tonight to give to the ex. I hope that it's enough to get my daughter back for the weekends. But I have a feeling she is gonna make this as hard as possible....

Well I went back to group tonight. It's good to be back. I've had some very strong urges lately. There were so many new faces and the people I know were happy to see me back. I am going again because...

I haven't made an entry in awhile. Just not felling very social. It's not that I don't want to but I can't seem to chit chat. Even at work I sit and keep to myself. One the plus side.... I had my...

Well I didn't just fall off the wagon. I crashed that motherfucker and watched it burn. It was bound to happen. Living by myself and all. I'm not mad at myself for doing it, maybe unsure.

Ok it's been awile since I've writen. Today is day 66 of sobriety and I feel great!! Tomorrow is Friday and the last day of work for the week. I've been hanging out with my family quite a bit lately....

I remember an afternoon when I was maybe 12 years old hanging out in front of the house  when the neighbor from across the street pulled into his driveway and my dad said hello to him and he came...