Well I went back to group tonight. It's good to be back. I've had some very strong urges lately. There were so many new faces and the people I know were happy to see me back. I am going again because my ex wife wants to see a report showing that I'm going and wants one every month. I guess I wouldn't have gone back otherwise, but it's kinda fun to go and I'm exited about it. I messed up once and have felt like a failure since. Haven't been hanging out with my family and being social. It's time to get back to that and start having fun again. There is a for sale sign in the front lawn now. Guess it is time to start making the house looking pretty. When I move out I will be leaving behind lots of memories. Some good ones but more bad ones. It is so time to move on! Maybe in a year I'll have my shit straight and can find someone that I enjoy being with. I got a call from a girl I was seeing for quiet awile. She stopped talking to me because I wouldn't  go pick her up at 4:00 in the morning on a Sunday moring because she was trashed. I am not sure I should get back together with her, she is quite the stoner. Cute as hell but I think she is a bad influance on me. But man she has a way of seducing me! But she is her own person and I can't tell her I don't want her do get high.