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I've been in a funk for a few days.  Today was really bad.  I know compared to some I have nothing to complain about.  But I am still in a bad mood.  Everything I tried to do was a problem.  I'm...

My last drink was Dec. 12.   I've thought about drinking a lot.  I miss it some.  I miss hanging out at the bar, having a pint on the deck.  I miss getting plastered in front of the TV on Friday...

Three months sober today.  Today was the kind of day I used to get drunk.  I ran my errands, went to the gym, then came home.  My wife was out all day. I started doing a project around the...

I'm still sober.  I went to a retirement party last night at a sports bar.  I drank water.  Nobody offered to buy me a drink.  It was good. I guess I'm cured.

I've been on vacation. I went to Vermont to visit my son.  But the vacation was interrupted by calls from work.  When I was drinking, I would probably have been drunk or hung over.  But this time,...

I'm having a do-nothing day.   I always felt that I was so worthless that the best I could do was stay out of the way.  Don't cause trouble.  Keep my mouth shut.  Go to work.  Pay the bills. ...

My last drink was Dec. 12.I don't have to label myself.  Okay, I'm an alcoholic.  My stories won't make the Big Book.  It's enough that I don't want to ever have another hangover.  I know it's...

When I was drinking, events like what happened today would be another reason to drink.  First I discovered the dryer was broken.  That would usually be enough.  Today, I was sober.  So I took the...

It's my journal, so I can write what I want.  I can whine, complain, despair, rejoice.  I don't have to explain myself.  I can write just for the experience.  To try to put down what's going...

I went for a short bike ride. I rode past the bar I used to hang out in.  There were two cars in the parking lot.  The cook and the bartender.  I used to enjoy going in when it was empty.  Not...

My cold is going away.  I feel normal again.  My desire for alcohol is manageable.  I took my bike out for a 25 mile ride.  It's a good day.My son called and said he quit drinking.  He had a bad...

Am I hiding?  I stayed home from work today.  I'm fighting a cold.  I really don't feel well.  But I could have gone to work.  I don't feel guilty, though.   I'm sick enough to stay home.  

15 days sober.  It helps that I have a cold and haven't felt like doing anything.  When I was drinking, I would drink even when I didn't feel well.  If I drank enough, one sick feeling would...

Tomorrow it wil be 2 weeks since my last drink.  I feel fine, except I caught a cold.I'm not depressed, or happy.  I'm just kind of ... just living.  I'm looking forward to feeling excited about...

I took the day off.  It's been a good day.  I haven't done much.  Spinning  class this morning.  90 minutes.  The instructor gave everyone candy canes.  Then I went to the river and parked on...