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Okay, here I am.  4 days off.  Alone in the house.  I think I'll be fine.  But this is a test.  

Got a bit of a craving today.  I suppressed it.  8 days since my last drink.  I still feel pretty good, but felt some anxiety today.  I went to a spinning class after work.  I thought about...

I made it through the weekend.  When I drank, I didn't have a lot of trouble getting through the start of the work week without drinking.  Monday and Tuesday were fine.  By Wednesday, I'd get...

Okay, I made it through Sunday football without a beer.   I don't think everybody has to be near death to realize they have a drinking problem. The lucky ones figure it out before that.  I hope...

What's different about this day?  I didn't stop at the liquor store on my way home from the gym.  I'll watch the game, sober. 

I joined DS today.  I've already received several supportive replies.  I'm one week sober  and it's been pretty easy so far.  I expect there to be tougher times ahead and hope DS will help me...

I've been in a funk for a few days.  Today was really bad.  I know compared to some I have nothing to complain about.  But I am still in a bad mood.  Everything I tried to do was a problem.  I'm...

My last drink was Dec. 12.   I've thought about drinking a lot.  I miss it some.  I miss hanging out at the bar, having a pint on the deck.  I miss getting plastered in front of the TV on Friday...

Three months sober today.  Today was the kind of day I used to get drunk.  I ran my errands, went to the gym, then came home.  My wife was out all day. I started doing a project around the...

I'm still sober.  I went to a retirement party last night at a sports bar.  I drank water.  Nobody offered to buy me a drink.  It was good. I guess I'm cured.

I've been on vacation. I went to Vermont to visit my son.  But the vacation was interrupted by calls from work.  When I was drinking, I would probably have been drunk or hung over.  But this time,...

I'm having a do-nothing day.   I always felt that I was so worthless that the best I could do was stay out of the way.  Don't cause trouble.  Keep my mouth shut.  Go to work.  Pay the bills. ...

My last drink was Dec. 12.I don't have to label myself.  Okay, I'm an alcoholic.  My stories won't make the Big Book.  It's enough that I don't want to ever have another hangover.  I know it's...

When I was drinking, events like what happened today would be another reason to drink.  First I discovered the dryer was broken.  That would usually be enough.  Today, I was sober.  So I took the...

It's my journal, so I can write what I want.  I can whine, complain, despair, rejoice.  I don't have to explain myself.  I can write just for the experience.  To try to put down what's going...