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  It's been 2 weeks today.

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Last Reply: LuckyEmpath 10/19/2017

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  Two weeks ago I ate my last bite of food that stayed down. That same day I ate again and threw up. I stopped eating after that. A week later I tried to eat some peanuts and threw them up. I was so upset and mad at myself that I said forget it. I haven't tried a bite of food since. I'm scared to eat because of the throwing up. The feelings associated with it are too much and it physically hurts. My throat is raw and I'm just tired of it. I know I can't keep going with no food, I'm getting weaker...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 10/11/2017

  kicker08210 became friends with Dancinggirl.

• Eating Disorders
  

  Everyday gets worse.

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Last Reply: Dancinggirl 10/15/2017

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  Everyday I say I'm going to make a step in the right direction and try to eat and everyday I realize there's another new thing I'm afraid of. I enjoyed Diet Coke and now I fear it after reading an article about it causing weight gain. There is nothing but coffee and tangerines that I can tolerate and I'm terrified of when I fear either of those. I can't keep going like this. I feel so weak, emotionally and physically.  

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  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Posted: 10/12/2017

  kicker08210 commented on the discussion Up and down emotions..

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  Up and down emotions.

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Last Reply: question 10/24/2017

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  Does anyone else feel like dealing with their ED gets so much harder at night? I just hung out with a friend and on the way home I was dreading him dropping me off and leaving because I knew I'd have to deal with my emotions at that point. Everything feels so much more intense when the sun goes down and I hate it. I also get excited going to sleep though because I look forward to waking up to weigh and see what I've lost. I get excited when the scale says .1 less and devistated when it says .1...

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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 10/10/2017

  kicker08210 commented on the discussion Feeling defeated..

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  Feeling defeated.

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Last Reply: Dancinggirl 10/11/2017

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  As you all know this isn't easy. As I sit here I cry thinking how did I get here...how did I let this happen. I don't know what I would say I suffer from. Anorexia, bulemia, I don't know. I guess both. In my past, 3 years ago, I went through a period of about 3 months where I lost 30lbs because I started eating small amounts of food, then started throwing up, then progressed to not eating anything. Friends and family stepped in and started pushing me to get better and would sit with me after...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Posted: 10/09/2017

  kicker08210 joined the group Eating Disorders.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: kicker08210

  Posted: 10/09/2017

  kicker08210 became friends with TeamDS.