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• self harm,suicude,anxiety. (for ages 13-19)
  

  Lost

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 11/11/2020

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  Possible Trigger Warning!!!I'm trying my best to hide how bad things are getting. I don't want everyone around me to know what's going through my head. I am so stressed and am struggling to keep up in classes. I broke down and asked my teacher for help, I don't know if I'll actually get help but I had to try. I am so lost in my own thoughts. I am currently about 8 months and 9 days clean from self harm. I say about because I never actually recorded the day, I know around when the last time was...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 10/31/2020

  brokensmile joined the group Borderline Personality Disorder.

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 12/03/2019

  brokensmile joined the group Teen Rant Room.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/11/2019

  brokensmile became friends with Katiedee.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/15/2019

  brokensmile became friends with Cindys74.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/21/2019

  brokensmile became friends with Thankfullanyway.

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  It's No Longer Living

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 04/16/2018

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  Now I'm no longer living but merely surviving. I don't even know why I'm trying. I cut so deep that I damaged a nerve in my wrist and have now lost all feeling, and mobility from my wrist to my hand. You'd think that that would stop me from cutting but I just can't stop. I need it, I feel as though I have no escape. That cutting is the only way to make my life better. Maybe I'd be better off dead. I wish I was dead. All my classmates hate me. I understand why I mean I'm a burden. I'm worthless....

• Suicide
  

  Thoughts

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Last Reply: gottaletgo 04/21/2018

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  How do I get the thoughts to stop? How do I make the voices go away? How can I make the pain stop without giving myself more pain? Why do I try? What did I ever do wrong? I've spent nights trying to sleep but the voices never let me. I just want them to stop. I just want it to stop. Please just make it stop.

• Suicide
  

  Discussion Like

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 04/16/2018

  brokensmile liked the discussion Hello.

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  Why Am I Alive?

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 03/04/2018

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  Earlier this week my "friend" who cuts herself told me that I couldn't yell at her for cutting because I cut myself for attention, do note that she came into class in booty shorts and short sleeves with cuts going up and down her thighs and wrists. Little did she or anyone know I'm still cutting. Everyone thinks that I am 3 months clean... only I know the truth about it, well aside from anyone who reads this, but none of you know my actual identity so in that way it remains a secret. I wish I...

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  New Friend

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 02/19/2018

  brokensmile became friends with hoi-imhuuman.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 02/19/2018

  brokensmile became friends with hoi-imhuuman.

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  Why

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 02/19/2018

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  What's the point in going on when there is nothing left for you here? Today alone I have lost three friends because no one really cares. I've been going through hell for who knows how long and I feel so alone. Maybe I should just end my life. Make everyone happy. Someone actually said I was lying (again) about being sexaully harrassed at school. Yet another one of my "friends" saying I'm lying and says "he's a good person, he wouldn't do that" but I'm the only one who knows the truth. Everyone...

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  Hug

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Posted: 02/19/2018

  brokensmile sent a hug to heyitserin

  Just thought you may need a hug. Message me if you wanna talk.
• Rape
  

  Sexual Harrasment

  Posted by: brokensmile

  Last Reply: itslexhere 02/20/2018

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  Currently I'm being sexually harrassed, daily. This guy on my team constanly is texting me asking for nudes, saying my boobs are hot and would look hotter bare, expressing how he wants in my pants and I've had it. I've started just giving in because it's so hard to talk to people. I told my coach but she hasn't done anything. He's pulled me onto his lap and forced me to "feel" him and I tell him to stop and he doesn't and no one believes me. I've been raped in the past but no one who knows me...