Bluone

This morning, thanks to DS, I woke up (unfortunately )a little more grounded. Being "seen" really has mattered. Thanks to the few who saw me, shared their thoughts and concern. You really made a...

Someone saw me...i m not invisible .  the funny thing about this is I was seen by someone I can't see. And it meant so much.I am surrounded by family who can only see thier wants, needs, no matter...

Day after day...night after night...Thoughts of dying are non stop... I just await for the day I lose the right.I don't even know I have made it this long.Don't care about nothing no more.Fill my...

Yucky day, yucky thought...same old shit. struggle to move, hard to even write this. But I like to read it. I m still here even though I don't wanna be.  can't say it's a logical choice, just a...

Nothing changes. I've already failed 3 times overdosing this year. failing is the only reason I havnt swallowed all these pills . My body is failing..my mind is failing..my memories are fading......

Every night I open a bottle of Ambien and bubropion. I cannot sleep.unless the bottles are open and there's a drink close by. After all I m not responsible for what I do in my sleep, right?