Someone saw me
Someone saw me...i m not invisible . the funny thing about this is I was seen by someone I can't see. And it meant so much.
I am surrounded by family who can only see thier wants, needs, no matter what is going on.
They don't see me.....only the me they want to. their needs, are going to drive me to a total breakdown in my emotional and mental instability I exist in.
And yes I know, but don't want to burst their bubble, dying would be easier ..
One more week 7 days... Or? I don't have a clue.
159 IQ and I am an idiot...i know, but I don't. I live and die everyday...my mind is my tormentor...it won't shut off
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Hi Bluone,
I'm really sad to hear that so I hope that all of us seeking help are in the right place, do you have a single family member that you can express any of this to who might be rational enough to at least try to understand ? If not, I'm sure you know there are self harm hotlines that are 24/7 and people on here that may not know you personally but would want to do what they can to help you thru this time in your life ( it's only temporary and will pass), my personal opinion is although things get hard, mental toughness and a refusal to loose will get us all thru. Good luck with everything and keep your head up !!!! Here if you want to chat
My family sucks. And i doubt the feelings will subside. I already overdosed 3 times this year. Shouldn't have failed but did...
The urge to end it all is stronger than the urge to live. ..
I am just existing until the moment comes again. And it's coming, I know it.
Thank you for the kind words. Daily strength kept me alive in 2009. Helped me stop cutting at a time when i could only function by cutting....cutting doesn't even help anymore. Nothing does.
Bluone
Hello Bluone, Yes your family sure sucks big time. Frankly I wish they would disappear and not you. I had a similar situation where I was just their benefits. So I took a long stride away from them and eventually just cut them out of my daily life. Ah but this is all very well for me to say, it won't help you if taking strides to get away is not a viable option right now. Is it possible to get away sometime in the future? In the mean time come to DS where you will be seen and heard.