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• Depression
  

  Not happy with my life and where I am at.

  Posted by: Gomezy3k

  Last Reply: Deckard 02/18/2020

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  I don't think it is depression, I have been depressed and I know what that horror feels like (many times).  I recently turned 69 and I went into a major bout of introspection of my life, of where I am, and what my future holds (it is all downhill from here...I may have 20 years or I may only have one, who knows).  Looking back over my life I realize that all my life I have felt like I was on the outside of life looking in a window watching people having fun and enjoying life.  I never felt...

• Depression
  

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  Posted: 01/28/2019

  Gomezy3k commented on the discussion Music when I am depressed.

• Depression
  

  Music when I am depressed

  Posted by: Gomezy3k

  Last Reply: SirGrits 02/01/2019

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  In my "normal" life, I have a big problem with emotions.  It seems like the only way I can feel anything is through music. I listen to uptempo music to feel "up"; Heavy Metal and Death Metal when I am supposed to feel anger.  It seems I play these a lot more than is good for me.  Although in a way they make me feel like I am not alone and someone can relate to me.https://youtu.be/3gydcChFnzQ https://youtu.be/9ylnx0NA9X4https://youtu.be/nh_LJCIOPaoDoes anyone else use music like this?

• Schizoid Paradox
  

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  Posted: 07/15/2017

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• Schizoid Paradox
  

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  Posted: 07/15/2017

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• Adopted adults
  

  Any Adults also suffer from Reactive Attachment Di

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  Last Reply: Tiffpro 02/07/2017

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  I Posted this in another forum and so far have no replies so thought I would try here...I was adopted when I was almost a year old. I spent the first part of my life in an orphanage. When my A-parents got me home, my mother thought it was cute that I rarely smiled, never laughed, and could stare down adults. My A-Mother was proud of me because she could sit me in a corner with a few toys (or later books - I learned to read at a very early age) and I would sit there till she came and got me,...