38 Weeks

It was 38 weeks ago today...that my life as I knew it changed forever. I miss her so much...my daughter, my best friend. We aren't meant to endure this much pain. I am tired, so tired...why, oh why, oh why. I want her back, I want to go back, I want to fix it, whatever it is that caused all this. I would do anything, anything.
It's all too much...too damn much. Oh dear God how did it all get so screwed up, ruined, killed. Cassi, me, life. 

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MomofJosh
MomofJosh

I hear your pain! We walk side by side on this path.

Remember to breathe...
deleted_user
deleted_user

Tightest of loving hugs.....I know... I wish....slow deep breathes. We are on this journey together. Debbie
Missinglisa
Missinglisa

Tight hugs of love and understanding.
We are on this crappy road together.
Love, M
donnasd
donnasd

I know the pain, Gina. It sucks & there\'s not much we can do...
beach620
beach620

I understand and feel your pain, dear Gina. It is so unfair that we must live through this. Why? Why? We will never know the answer to that question. We are here for you,
CFMOM2
CFMOM2

Yes it hurts like hell. With you in heart always. Kathy
saltwatercowgirl
saltwatercowgirl

Words can\'t begin to describe the pain---with you as always. Vicki
sonshinedeb
sonshinedeb

I just hate it has to hurt so bad. Gentler days will come, but in it\'s own time. Until then, holding you and Cassi in my heart.
XOXO, Debbie
Jasons1mom
Jasons1mom

I couldn\'t agree with you more. No one is meant to endure this much pain, and sadness and loneliness and despair.
I don\'t have any answers, only know you are not alone...
(((hugs))) Merrilee
jmk1973
jmk1973

I am so sorry, Gina. There are no answers, just endless pain...

(((HUGS)))...Julia
RememberKala
RememberKala

Scream it out darling!!! I\'m so sorry.

Hugging you with my whole heart~~
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

Witnessing, companioning and caring...

I\'m amazed, truly amazed that our hearts are still able to beat, truly I am...

Loving, loving care in this moment~
gretcho
gretcho

OHHH.......... I am so sorry please know that we all feel our pain.....keep writing we are listening!!xxoo(((HUGS))) gretcho
Abotsd
Abotsd

Me too. I would do anything to have my Jacob back. Life is not interested in my wishes. I walk with you, hand in hand. Our hearts keep beating, and we put on our shoes and go out the door.

Four and a half years have passed for me. My heart is brutalized and stabbed a few minutes every day, but in between, I live my life loving others. So sorry that your pain is so new and sharp. It will calm down I promise you. Love, Abby
laura555
laura555

A day late, but still thinking of you and Cassi. xoxo, Laura