I am so very sorry for your loss. I have lost my wife for only a few week so I am in no position to give you advice, just my deep sympathy and hugs. Tiger

Thanks Tiger. My condolences to your loss. It is tough. One day at a time is all we can do.

I am right there with you ...it was harder for me too The realization that not only is he really gone but my entire future life as WE knew it....sorry about the snow bank...you rant any time you want!!!

I see you are a fellow Canadian. I am also just passed the 2 year mark. Everyone's experience on this grief journey is a little different. I have been very involved in different grief groups and alot of people say year 2 is when the fog lifts and the realization of everything that has happened hits home. Like you say friends also move on with their lives. If their are any grief support groups in your area I would access them. They can be found through hospice, griefshare, and churchs to name a few. This is a good place to vent and we get it here. I am truly sorry for the pain you are experiencing. DS has helped me through some very tough times, I am sure they can do the same for you. Wishing you gentle days ahead.

I think the fog is just beginning to lift and it was one year last Monday. I try to take it all a day at a time but always feel that intense emotion of missing my husband. I attend a support group and it helps. Today I had plans to spend with a girlfriend but she had something come up last minute. So alone all day. Tackling projects now that needed to get done around the house. I do volunteer work at two different organizations, take classes, also a few fun things, but once you come home it is back to the realization that special person you loved most in the world is gone. I still feel half my heart is gone....

Thanks gerald. I have thought of doing that and recently found a group. I have been considering joining. I just need to take that first step. Good advice.

I just passed two years as well and I feel the same way. I'm finding this trying to build a new life so very hard. I retired last year and now I find myself having a hard time filling my days and feeling very alone. I have done some dating and did meet someone I liked but that another rush of emotions I don't know how to deal with. Feel free to rant any time as we get it.
Russ

I'm sorry for your loss. It has been 2 years and 4 months since I lost my wife. I am very fortunate to have our son, he was 8 at the time, just turned 11 and he's what keeps me going. He says he is going to live with me forever so I won't be alone, but I know eventually he'll move out. Meeting new people has been awkward for me. They say they're sorry, and then seem to get uncomfortable. I miss the companionship of my wife, and would like to have someone else in my life like that, but at the same time, can't see myself with anyone else. Which is why I went online, to see if I was alone, and I've found out here I'm not.

Oh goodness I did not want to hear that year two is worse......sigh.

I need something to fill my days but just don't have the desire to leave the house for long periods of time and don't want to crate my dog for hours to do so. She is such a comfort for me.

I wanted to hear that year two was much better.

OK... I am just past the 2 year mark. For me it is better. But.. I may not be the norm around here. It is sunny and warm here. I just got back from cemetery. That might make the difference. The weather...

Yes I think the second year is worse is some strange way, maybe because we know its real.

I am at 3 1/2 yrs and find it not much better. Maybe #4 or 5 will be the charm. Gotta have some hope of it getting better.
Yes, people seem to forget about us, even our family's, their lives go on while are are stopped.

Hi Debbie,
Another Canadian here. I am so glad you joined the group. It will be a great help for you.
I joined I joined around 2 months after my husband passed in July 2014. It has been a tremendous support for me.
Gerald is right....a local grief support group can be a very positive way to vent and make. New friends. I went to a GriefShare group, which us Christian based, however anyone can go. I am still friends with many
Of the people, in the group.
Hopefully your day getting better.....I am sure your neck of the woods, N.S. is still snow bound.
Keep posting, the support here is amazing!
Hugs......Sandra

Hey Debby...
The first year, I think I was kind of numb... still in a bit of shock still recovering from the extreme fatigue of having to work fulltime, take care of home and family, AND have a sick and dying spouse on top of it all...
The second 'anniversaries' without my husband seemed to hit me harder than the first ones; his second birthday, mine, our wedding anniversary, his death anniversary, Christmas, etc. It was like my feelings had defrosted and I really felt the loneliness much more intensely.
Since my husband was so sick for so long, our social life had died off already, and it wasn't such a bump as before. I have many friends who saw me individually before he died, still do now, and am making new friends through grief groups, Beginning Experience and through a social group I started in my home town. That and the kids have kept me very busy.
Your feelings are not at all unusual - friends who are widowed tell me they've been through the same thing.
Big hugs, & take care.
-Jac.

it is very frightning to me that at 1-2-3 yrs it's not any better. I'm at a month and half and to think my life for years to come will be this sad, this emotional wow..Honestly take a gun and shoot me now because I couldn't do the rest of my life like this..

Hi!
I can sign my name under your post! Can relate to what you said! Only people on the same journey can relate to our pains,concerns etc. I lost my husband 4 yrs ago and I am still grieving and I miss him a lot!
It is different grief now.i cry less and on the surface looks like I function ok. But really grief takes much longer then we hope and wish. Our life will never be the same and grief is just part of it! We build this new life around it! With my widows and widowers friends I have now the best connection and old friends do not understand what we have been going through! Sending big hug! Love