Last year I had an UnChristmas. On Christmas day my daughter and I went to a Chinese restaurant and a three D movie..."not related to Christmas." I did have the kids and grandkids over the night before Christmas. A quirky little broken tree...a gift each for the children and grand children. No other decorations. It was 8 months since Denny died last Christmas.

This Christmas I don't even feel like pretending that I am going to enjoy Christmas. Last year I had to put on a face for the children and grandchildren. I know it's Jesus's Birthday. I think Jesus will understand. Just isn't the same without Denny here.

Sorry....looking like it will be another UnChristmas for me this year. I don't even have Unplans for this Unchristmas. I guess kids and grandkids over...those that will actually come..only two came for Thanksgiving. Two are still mad at me.

I just am having a hard time getting some oomph around the day that used to be so fun as we did all the buying, decorating, picking the tree, bringing the boxes up from the basement, wrapping the gifts, taking them out..setting them up...together. We even taped the packages together. I wrapped and he taped. I can see his hand reaching over with the tape and missing the spot all together and us laughing in spite of ourselves. He was so proud as I produced the gift and he went and searched for and found "just the right size box" every time. It was such a team effort. Actually I picked the tree and he decorated it...so much better than me.

It will be an UnDay for me...that's for sure!
hugs..
-Diana

Wow Tami I think you have said it the best with the waves crashing then not so much. I totally understand. Thank you. Hugs, Wendy

Red nose, red eyes, I've got it all too. Can't do Christmas this year. It's only been 5 months. I have no decorations (threw them all away). Will not shop (have given my kids money for themselves and the grandkids). I stay away from stores. However, I will spend Christmas with my children and just let them do everything. I am not cooking either. I will let this holiday wash over me, somehow.

I'm sorry, I'm not being very helpful, but I just can't face it without David. Christmas will come and go. And I will enjoy my family, but once back home again, the sadness will spill out.

This is my second Christmas without Larry. I have a small 2-3 ft prelit tree..no decorations on it. I have gifts under the tree for family and friends. But no joy...I got through last Christmas by reminding myself that Jesus is the reason for the season. I cried last year as I will this year.I miss my precious husband by my side smiling and watching the grandkiddos open their gifts.

I got the tree out yesterday. Oh my gosh he put it away in the back shed and the thing is huge. I had to use a wheelbarrel it took two trips to get it all to the house. Then I had to wrestle the bottom section through the door. I felt victorious when I got the other sections in until I was putting the wheelbarrel away there was one little light in the bottom of it, the tree is prelite and you know what happens when you are missing one light in a strand. Ugh! Anyway all the frustration kept my tears at bay. But this evening I climbed into the attic for the decoration. Like you Wendy I cried a river. I got the decorations down and found two that were wrapped. We had bought them last year for a party we had been invited to but didn't go because he wasn't feeling well. Boy that sent me into a tizzy! The past Christmas and all the stupid medical mistakes that were made....well...that is were it is had for me get reconciled.
Christmas is going to be hard, but ya know if it weren't for Christmas we would have no real hope.
Sorry I don't usually say much and now I've written a mini novel
Diane