You have found that place. Don't beat yourself up. You will get back to that good place. We have a good support sub-group in "Beating Trich". Unfortunately, I don't know if there is a way to stop this permanently. I have been pulling for about 53 years. I do know, however, that it can be managed.

I have been on DS for a few years now, and have received much support and strength. Sometimes, the monster goes away, and I wonder what the problem ever was. Then it returns with a vengeance, for no reason that I can pinpoint, and I pull until my scalp breaks out. The last week has been really bad, so I decided to come back here. In the last two days, simply by being accountable here, I have gone from 100 hairs pulled in a day to three. So far today, I am pull-free.

Thank you! It's the worst feeling of despair after a session such as these, ya know? I usually feel terrible after a session but this one was absolutely horrific! I'm sorry you just went through the same. We should keep up with rack other since its dyi one!♡

Hi! I'm 60 and usually don't pull anymore. I started at 7. I was molested and couldn't talk about it. My hair had grown back in my 4os and I had counseling and medicine. But since my hysterectomy at 50, my hair has thinned so much in those old spots. I use rogaine and try to cover it up. When i swim i wear a cap. I have to hide it. But there's still a girl inside of me longing to meet "the one" and I don't feel very pretty sometimes.

my husband and i been together for over 10 years. Hes my sweetheart and my teddy bear when It comes to cuddling. As we know the honey moon phase has gone but we make sure we have our good moments. anyway as I have had the ocd issues with pulling my hair and raging. Hes a mellow person and is never one to have a temper or get irritated. I don't know if by me doing that and sometimes more than others has caused him to lose his patients and get angry at times its been an ongoing battle and i think ie worn him out. He says he gets it but he don't have and how can you get if you don't go thru it. Hes never hit me or threatened.He tells me it will be ok because sometimes i go long periods of time with out doing it and then i go long continuously periods of doing it. Lately hes been telling me and an angry tome just shave you f**cking head bald and we wont have to deal with it,sometimes hell throw things and smash them especially when im in my raging phase with it. My therapist tells me I probably have caused him anxiety over the coarse of ten years where hes held it in.then i feel bad. He always seems to wanna work more and go to the gym all the time where he doesn't wanna come home. That's why I have booked him on a 2 week get away with full adventures he likes and his older brother hes closest with is going with him. Maybe that will be better i get my own thoughts under control or atleast try to. when im at work and focused it helps.

Aww, omg! If you would like to private meessge me i would really like to have a more in depth conversation with you, is that's ok return you! thank you so much for sharing that.

Sunnyd55, thank you for sharing that. Thank you for sharing that! I totally understand that feeling. I'm so sorry!! ♡♡