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It's good to see you doing better. Pace yourself on the garage.
David.

I hope all of you get rid of the extra aches and pains. It's hard enough to live with the usual stuff!

Superduck come and swoop me up I'm ready! Love you too sweetheart!

Kansass extra hugs friend!

David glad things are working out, try some moist heat on those aches and pains.

So relieved to hear that all our DS family has survived the hurricane. Sorry for the aches and pains, but glad it's nothing more serious :)

I had my drs appt today and went an hour away, had to wait 5 min. for the door to open when I get a call. It's my drs office calling me telling me not to come, because my dr called in sick! I said but I'm in the front of the building! This was to refill my pain meds which I have 1 left. There isn't anyone else that can write the script errrrrr. Jims' surgery is tomorrow, so who knows when I can get this done. Bummer day.

To all less pain and many hugs

Toni...doctors can't call in sick, can they? Seems like they should know how to avoid illness! I hope you were able to get your meds.

I lost interet for 48 hours, but other than some water in my cellar, my property is fine. There has been horrible flooding, though. Vermont is a disaster. The southern part of the state is the worst, though we had lots of flooding in the north, too. Many businesses downtown, are a mess and some of the parking lots were looking like lakes yesterday. Many historic covered bridges in Vermont were swept away with the flood waters and several people lost their lives as as the water came on suddenly. Such a sad, sad thing. One young woman was carried off as her boyfriend watched. Her body was found many hours later.

It certainly puts things in perspective.

I felt so cut off from my friends while my internet was down, but it's such a small thing compared to the big picture...no more whining about that!

Hugs to all,
Cherry

Good Morning,

It's so nice to see my friends here. I hope those of you who are not doing so good, get to feeling better.

I am doing OK today. I need to put weather stripping around a door. That's my project today. My favorite thing to do, (which is nothing), will be put on hold (lol).

I feel Blessed to know you all and I hope you all have a great day.

Hugs,
David.

Cherry, I know, I hate it when I'm cut off from my internet peeps. It just makes me feel more isolated and alone.

Today is a turd, that's the only way I can put it.
I'm upset over my disability decision, I've not slept well and probably drank too much last night. I know, shouldn't drink on the meds.
I've been reading this long denial over and over and now I'm going to highlight everything I disagree with and then start explaining why when my head clears a little.
I got pissed and posted something on the main board I probably shouldn't have but oh well, screw it.
I probably shouldn't even post anything today because I'm in a very dark place.

Hugs anyway,

Mike

Mike, All you said is that DS promised us a CL and didn't deliver. That is a truth and there is nothing wrong with speaking the truth.
Another reason I don't post alot besides the pain is that I don't like bearing my soul to others. I am too intense and I don't think anyone wants to hear it and I hate shallowness, so mostly I don't say anything.
Today I just don't care. I hate the fact that this world seems so cold.
I can't put the fake smile on and act like I am fine. I just can't do it.

Mike,
It is when you are in a dark place that you should come. We are all here for our friends when good and bad happen. I can't even imagine how bad this is for you. It is like a personal attack. I know everyone says they
use every excuse in the book to deny but still it sucks. As one friend to another take a break from it when you
need to. Don't let it drag you down if you can find something to beat up like a trash can grab a bat and do it.
Just don't make yourself hurt worse. You will get through this and next time you will win. I am thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way.

Toni I can't believe the audacity of that stupid doctor to call in. I hope you went inside and refused to leave until they gave you your script. Good luck to Jim. He is in my prayers. As are you my dear friend. Oh that miss super duck could spread those wings and fly out and drop some meds on your doorstep.

David thank you for this thread. Good luck with the door.

Mike, you are with friends who are very familiar with tht dark place. No need to apologize or think you shouldn't share those feelings. Let us all put you in a group hug! I could use one, myself.

big hugs to paulina and kansass! i hope things work out for you here soon enough.

irocket- my doc is one to take alot of vacations so i never know when he's there. a situation like yours happends to me every now and again. I hope you don't run outta meds, life is pretty misearable without relife.

i just got done filling out a vaulenteer app for my step kiddo's school , i found a teeny tiny way to help and its a really small project. Till the doc wants me to work it sould keep me busy.

I can't belive school starts in 7 days! this weekend is the last weekend before school, it looks like we will have sunshine and warm weather so we can get use outta the pool and slip 'n slide! I can say that i'm ready to have summer overwith, i'm sick of being so sensitive to the heat that i have to hole up in my bedroom with the A/C on and stay there a majority of the day.

today i'm cooking dinner for the first time in weeks (hubby's been cooking) cause ive been so dosh garn sick this summer. Today is a medium pain day so it shouldn't be too bad.

also i got back from my mini vacation on saterday so we didn't do family movie night over the weekend so now we are doing it tonight.

The movie of the night is phenis and ferb! LOL!!!!

Yes this is the place to be if you are in that dark place and need to be lifted up. I had a rotten day too. Started out very busy and got busier as it went but what really got me was visiting the office. I have worked there for 4 years and love the atmosphere and people. I visited for a while and talked to a few of my coworkers, one who was off on medical leave this year after being diagnosed with MS. The workplace has changed and is not so friendly for people like us that need the rules stretched a little now and then... extra sick days, or working from home cause we're just in alot of pain - not allowed any more. As much as I miss work I know it is for the best that I don't go back until I can handle 8 hrs, 5 days a week without any issues.... and that seems like a pipe dream right now. That reality hit hard and I'm pretty depressed about the possibility that I may not be able to ever go back. Home, pain and stress, dealing with insurance and medication and pain management - this is not the life I wanted at 43 yrs old. I just don't have any fight in me today, I hope I wake up in a better mood tomorrow.

@ Lisa..so sorry you had a bad day. I hope it is better tomorrow.
Unfortunately I had a horrible day today too. I messed up my meds and forgot to change my fentanyl patch in over 4 days! I have never done that. Ughh so dumb!! I realized it about 4:00 when I started having cold sweets. I had been feeing horrible all day. My older daughter had to get up at 7:30 to go babysit the neighbors 1&3 yr old boys (who are the cutest boys ever) My younger daughter got up and wanted to go too to help, they are kinda like little brothers to her. So I thought I would go too and see the boys and I started realizing something wasn't right. OMG can't believe how hard it hit me. It didn't click what was wrong and I was so achy and anxious and emotional all day. I am starting to feel better now but the girls saw how bad I was feeling and they both started crying! Poor hubby!! 3 crying girls at dinner! Good thing he had an apt with his counselor today!!! LOL

I don't think we are going to be able to go up north over the weekend. Girls not happy about that either. But they understand. Hubby prob has to work and Monday would be triple time. Hard to pass up. Ugh...just not a good day.

Next week I have my x-ray to see if I am fused. I am soooo praying it is. Then hopefully I can start PT and get some strength and energy back. My nerve pain is much better. Just feel achy alot (well esp today)

@Mike..I can not believe they denied you. I am shocked. I pray this gets resolved soon So sorry to hear that.

@Rayray..Hi buddy! Hope you had a good mini vacation. LOL...phenis and ferb!! Our houses are so different. The girls won't watch that show!!! Too funny. My hubby has been cooking a lot too. I still am on restrictions, and we are still gettings some meals, but he has had to do it most nights. It is usually something grilled. Getting tired of that!! But I am thankful he does it.

I also can't believe school starts next week. One is going in 10th grade, one in 4th. Both at new schools. I am really nervous about the younger one. She really doesn't know anyone yet, but she has a good personality and I pray it goes well.

Sorry I havent been on too much lately. Hubby has worked every day and I have tried to get this school shopping done. Thank God my daughter is driving. We have everything done finally and just have easy things to do the rest of the week so hopefully I can start feeling better.....once I recover from my stupid patch mistake.

I hope you are all well. Take care everyone.
Autumn

Mike I think we all understand where you are coming from right now. I read your post and didn't see anything wrong with it.

Pauli I miss seeing you on here and no one expects you to always be smiling. Tell us how you really feel and we'll help as much as we can, I hope you know by now how much we really care about you. Hugs and understanding

I wasn't very happy about this drs appt. It was the first appt of the day so no one else was there to write me a script. I made an appt for Fri, but like I told the receptionist I have no idea how Jim will feel then. He had his surgery today. I took my last pill tonight as I sit at the hosp. all day. It's been a week since my foot and leg have been all cramped up and it just won't stop.

Thanks for the prayers Hippy! You've been in mine too.

RayRay you mean your dr goes on vacation when you have an appt? Errrr! I sure hope he has someone fill in for him.

Hang in there Lisa I know this is hard, but take one day at a time and know we are here for you. Hugs

Good Morning Everyone,
I feel pretty good today. I see my PM tomorrow. Might need to tweak my medication a bit, but the SCS has been a Blessing.

To all my friends that are not doing so well right now, hang in there. You can come here and share how you feel. This is a safe, managed,(if you want to call it that) environment. Please share a little bit about yourself.

Rocco just got done making a meal out of my computer stand, so now he's chewing on my keyboard, no wait, now he's chewing on my shoe laces. He has also enriched my life.

I hope you all have a great day.

Hugs,
David.

BLECK!!!

Got a touch of the crud this morning. My wife's been sick the last few days and now I've got it. She wants me to take her to the doc in a bit and see what kind of crud this is. She felt really bad yesterday and this morning so I know what's comming for me....great! At least the kids don't appear to have it yet.

Morning,

Same old stuff, these days seem to be copy's of the days before and wish I wasnt in this funk that I seem to be in lately.

I do have the downtown Arts and eats and beats this weekend so that is something to look forward to. I love to go downtown with all the people and all the food it smell so good. I just hope my leg will not give out and mess up the day.

Hope everyone has a good and low pain day