i think someone knows im on this site and may track me.
so i will keep dumping this group so im not listed ok its nothing against any of you ok
i just need to be carefull

Don't worry about that, you need to protect yourself. I truely hope that no one is tracking you, but if that is the case I hope you find out who it is and report them. I am here for support.

I told someone once, I have only told a few people but I think I wish I hadn't told anyone apart from my current boyfriend.

I haven't had anyone deny my abuse so far but I have been overlooked by the justice system, youth services and youth workers - in away that nothing was done or said to remove me from the dangers of the environments I grew up in

well I remember when i first starting dealing with it, i talked about it like it was the weather or sports with my friends. it's just part of the process. i'm really sorry you interacted with someone who might have had an emotional response to your pain and did not know how to deal with their emotions in a positive fashion (to put it mildly). You are not alone.

You're always going to feel like you told the wrong person the first time you admit what's happened to you. I know I surely did. The fact of the matter is, you need to tell yourself, HEY, I told someone. I admitted it. You need to see that as a good thing. No matter how much of an insensitive being that person may have been, you told someone this horrible thing that has happened to you, and by doing that, you're beginning to let it go. If I had to go back and choose someone else to tell, I would change it, but if it wasn't for that person, my perpetrator wouldn't be behind bars right now. People that haven't been through what you have will hardly ever understand, and will normally reject it due to unfamiliarity. To them, rape is something you hear about on CSI, not something that happens in real life. All you need to tell yourself at this point in time is that you are an AMAZING person because you came threw and said something, and for that, I congratulate you. I'm always here if you need anything.

the very first person i told went wrong for other reasons

i liked some one and i was ending up a wreck everythime they sat near me and i they were going to leave and were angery with me.I said on dont go i will explain but not here.so we left and went to a park i sat under a tree and tryed to explian stuff and i ended up a wreck then a gang of teens came past and saw me upset and in a mess and istulted me and called me names and trew stuff at me.
we had to run away.
so much or the right time place and moment.soon after the person i told left me.

telling the wrong person can be very hurtful but we have to remember it comes from ignornance or denial that were get negative responses.

I remember in high school dating a guy after my boyfriend and I broke up and I had told him some of what happened as a child, he must have said something to his mother and she told me she didn't want her son with damaged goods, it would be just too much for him to handle...I never forgot those words she said and probably never will.

She passed on when she was 53 years young and I hope she thought about what she had said to me and realised she was wrong to say them to a child.

With love!

thats really sad how that person you told isnt mature enough to understand that it wasnt your fault. im sorry that your friend hurt you like that, its not right. i was on the opposite end of your situation. my ex told me bout wat happened to him. he thought i was going to treat him diff or see him diff but i didnt. i still look @ him the same way to this day. yeah, i think his past has alot to do with his decisions today but still. wat happened in your past makes you the person you are today. i truly hope you find the right person to confide in, even though i know you are scared to do it again. im sure there are more understanding and supportive people in your life because i know that when he told me bout his abuse, a big weight was lifted off his shoulders by just having someone to finally talk bout it with when he needed it.

the damaged goods bit

that stuck right?
its had to let that go
i seem to get that comment backed up about me a lot.
even people that dont realy know me spot it and i have to find a way to distract them from it buy acting funny or crazy anything

really i do feel like damaged goods i cant argue then what?

Yeah i've told the wrong person, by the end of the day everyone knew and was asking all sorts of questions, so much for trusting a friend, and even the teachers knew

so who is the right person?
it seems each other here is the only place or is that to closed?and back to hidding?
anyone in therapy ever get good out of it or was it just all pain.
after having my insides ripped out all i managed was a low level of self dissuckst
yes i cant spell :(

There are people that I wish that I never told. I told one guy at work and now he is touching me sexually and hitting on me right and left. He keeps asking me if he can come over to my house. I keep refusing, but he is persistant.

yah, and they say talk about but when people blame u for it its hard to talk about it again