More than likely they would have kept them as trophy's and possibly in a locked container. I don't know but I've watched alot of crime shows and that's what they show people doing. I hope for your sake that they don't come across them.

Your abuser would have hidden them.

...going to remind you that you were a kid and it was absolutely not your fault.

Spreading child's pornography is forbidden by law. I can feel you are scared, but there must be some place around you that provides legal counselling for victims of sexual abuse that can help you.
You have nothing to be ashamed of. No matter what anyone says.

I did take a photograph of two young Sisters at the last day of school; when I was 16 and they were 13 and 12; for the sake of pleasuring myself. But by the grace of God it never progressed to abusive images; they were in their uniform.

At that age I thought the law was an A$$, but now I realise that I was developing abusive tendencies. But I had no notion of acting out any other way, perhaps it was a sense of protection from a life of being an evil abuser.

@desigol1979, why would you share this here when this member is clearly under pressure and is on the other side of things, as the attacked and not the attacker? Don't you think it can be triggering?
I had to share that I am shocked.

Thank you everyone for your support i showed this to my friend who is the actual writer of this post and she feels better so thank you for the kind words. from both me and her.

I was just speaking my truth. At that age I had depraved fantasies that would make Charles Manson squirm. Having been abused as a child myself, I grew up with a distorted view of Childhood. (I never really had a Childhood back then)

Generally speaking, most bad ppl who take those kinds of pictures keep them, and are actually scared of getting caught.. Scared so much, that they will do everything in their power to keep them from getting released...
Sadly though, this is not what they tell us. They tell us that they will release them if we don't do as they say.. But I believe they are to scared to actually do that to really do it...

Now, on you, you have done nothing wrong!
You are innocent in all this, please don't let the worry take over you..
I understand a little bit, and I was scared about my pics being out there too, but I've gotten to the point that I just don't worry about that... There are great ppl on here who understand, and have been on the same side as other victims/survivors... That want to help, not trigger you further.

We're here for you to talk to, and understand more than you know...
You are stronger than you think!!
You posted that question, that takes strength!!

We are here for you, you are...

Not alone!

I don't have anything to add but to echo what notalone00 said.
it will always be a worry but it's not something that you can allow to overwhelm you, it's not your fault and if it were to ever come out, nobody could say it's your fault, it's not your fault.
typically a perp will keep these things for themselves, rarely will they share or release something like that. if they were ever come to light it would be multiple nails in your perps coffin.
hugs to you.