Schizophrenia Support Group
Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.
I thank those who worried and prayed for me.
However the webcam doctor striked again and my 20th birthday the appointment was missed and now I am told i will have to wait months before the next available because they refuse to fit me in the schedule if I can't make the appointments. I have to cancel because there are only two cars and two drivers I can't always get there so I had to cancel it! They weren't pleased.
In the meantime I have been really lagging in mental capacity. I had a horrible mental breakdown today and I locked myself in my bedroom with the curtains drawn and lights off. I tried to hang myself and then cut. I'm still not so well atm but I just wanted to update you all. I sincerely wish to have a fuckin fabulous update someday. I was really scared earlier anybody who tried to talk to me I was afraid they had sent them, according to robert the man that lives inside my teddy bear(he's real dammit! doctors dont know shit!) there are people after me and everyone is in on the deal. There is a car that sits on the edge of the road facing my house. Maybe they are watching me waiting for me to mess up so they can take me. I'm ranting that much doesn't matter. What does matter is that I hate my doctor with a passion! My voices are horrible right now they think they're really funny which they arent, they're just really witty. Grr and theres a man that goes on my exercise trail he follows me and my voices always tell me to slow down and let him kill me but when he gets close and I stop so he can pass he disappears it's creepy back there! I hate it but exercise makes me happy. Other than him lets see there's the guys that mind fucks me in the mirror and the chinese girl who plays with the cabinets as well as a baby and something or someone who lives in my closet always just stare. If they don't talk I just slam the door it's not much to ask for a little conversation right? I mean it is my closet for fricks sake!
Another problem lately would be men! Well my ex, I was with him for 5years all together and he manipulated lied and cheated the whole time I got the ghaul to leave and I felt like shit for a few days but I'm okay I think.
I sincerely hope someday you all that read my posts can log on someday to something happy for once. I'm sorry for the harsh language I'm just really angry I think I may be having an anger flash from the prozac :/
Shanese x
However the webcam doctor striked again and my 20th birthday the appointment was missed and now I am told i will have to wait months before the next available because they refuse to fit me in the schedule if I can't make the appointments. I have to cancel because there are only two cars and two drivers I can't always get there so I had to cancel it! They weren't pleased.
In the meantime I have been really lagging in mental capacity. I had a horrible mental breakdown today and I locked myself in my bedroom with the curtains drawn and lights off. I tried to hang myself and then cut. I'm still not so well atm but I just wanted to update you all. I sincerely wish to have a fuckin fabulous update someday. I was really scared earlier anybody who tried to talk to me I was afraid they had sent them, according to robert the man that lives inside my teddy bear(he's real dammit! doctors dont know shit!) there are people after me and everyone is in on the deal. There is a car that sits on the edge of the road facing my house. Maybe they are watching me waiting for me to mess up so they can take me. I'm ranting that much doesn't matter. What does matter is that I hate my doctor with a passion! My voices are horrible right now they think they're really funny which they arent, they're just really witty. Grr and theres a man that goes on my exercise trail he follows me and my voices always tell me to slow down and let him kill me but when he gets close and I stop so he can pass he disappears it's creepy back there! I hate it but exercise makes me happy. Other than him lets see there's the guys that mind fucks me in the mirror and the chinese girl who plays with the cabinets as well as a baby and something or someone who lives in my closet always just stare. If they don't talk I just slam the door it's not much to ask for a little conversation right? I mean it is my closet for fricks sake!
Another problem lately would be men! Well my ex, I was with him for 5years all together and he manipulated lied and cheated the whole time I got the ghaul to leave and I felt like shit for a few days but I'm okay I think.
I sincerely hope someday you all that read my posts can log on someday to something happy for once. I'm sorry for the harsh language I'm just really angry I think I may be having an anger flash from the prozac :/
Shanese x
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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My day...today...misplaced my debit card...didn't realize it until I got to the register after shopping to a full cart. Used a different debit card and pulled apart everything looking for missing debit card before I left parking lot. Got home, dropped keys. So now I have a missing debit card, missing keys. A full cartload to unload and put away. I got everything put away.Dumped purse for a...
Serious bummer that you missed that appointment. Maybe we can help you remember the next one.
Have you found any support groups yet?
Great to see you back, Shanese. You made my day.
wow girl you really have your hands full... dont like the idea that you tried to say bye bye.... listen to plywood and get that med changed... tell them what she said... have someone go with you to make sure .... write it down...that has got to be it...
let us know right away please... we miss you
Never found that group sadly there's only one for bipolar patients nothing for miles with schizophrenia which really sucks.
I am looking for a new doc! My current when i do see him he asks me what problem should be treated. I try to ask for the shot to be sure my meds are taken at least he would just rather try every pill that my other doctors have tried. First doctor is too far and the second gave up on me because she wasn't seeing any progress.
Thanks plywood! That may be why I was so angry because of the prozac.
I'm feeling much better thanks to my boyfriend who took me to the lake to comfort me under the stars for a few hours , he asked questions about the disorder and the depression he wishes he could help but with his work schedule he can't always be around but he's made it clear he will leave work to make sure everything is fine. Concerned to tears almost but I'm glad he tlkd instead of allowing me to stay locked up in my dark bedroom.
I will definitely ask about cymbalta and wellbutrin! It may be the better choice. my brain chemistry is knocked off with hormones and what not it would be nice to take something that works without making me angry :)
This Official Bi Polar officially invites you to that bi-polar group. Please come. We want you.