Schizophrenia Support Group
Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.
I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder six years ago. I have been hospitalized 17 times in the last nine years. I’ve been given the diagnosis of bipolar disorder, generalized anxiety, PTSD, and borderline personality disorder. My current psychiatrist gave me the diagnosis of schizoaffective bipolar type. Most of the time i’m pretty functional. But when I get an episode I usually have to be hospitalized. I have been reading books on bipolar disorder and schizophrenia and getting some understanding of my mental illness. At first I thought I just had bipolar disorder but it did not explain everything that I go through. I usually experience mania and depression together with my psychosis and anxiety that causes me to have to be hospitalized. There have been times Where I have lost my ability to speak. I have completely checked out and been a dream like state not knowing what’s going on around me. I lost this much is two weeks at a time before. I’ve had hallucinations lasted five months. All the books I have read don’t explain the disassociation that I encounter sometimes I do things that I don’t know I’m doing. I find myself tied up in the hospital not knowing how I got there. My dad said that one time he heard three distinct voices when I was sick. From what I have read this sounds like dissociative disorder or multiple personality disorder. I want answers from the psychiatrist but they just want to give me medicine and send me on way my way. Over the last six months I have been doing pretty good. I haven’t been experiencing any mania just a little bit of depression every now and then. My psychosis is pretty much under control but sometimes I get so anxious that I start seeing spots and patterns and things look amplified. I know they’re not real and when I hear voices I know they’re not real also. I’ve lost my children because of my mental illness. I had postpartum depression and psychosis with my youngest daughter. I heard voices to kill her and I was overwhelmed by taking care of my son and her. I never had problems with my son only postpartum mania but no problems bonding with him. With my daughter I just couldn’t connect and I didn’t really want her but I didn’t want to hurt her. It took me three years to get better but I lost the kids. Now my oldest daughter is almost 18 my son is almost 10 and my youngest daughter is almost 8 and I have custody of none of them my parental rights were terminated for all of them. This is very hard for me to deal with.
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
I, too, have a smorgasbord of dx'es in my psych portfolio. PTSD is the dx which tied them all together in my personal therapy. PTSD sure has allot of different ways it can manifest symptoms.
This is one of the slowest moving forums on the DS website. I monitor it through my newsfeed and hope springs eternal, but I have yet to see significant support action happen here. I honestly don't understand why that is, but it is what it is whether I understand it or not.
The PTSD forum is lively and I extend an invitation for you to visit there. It is a very supportive healing community.
Gentle validation and support, whichever way you take it. Welcome to DS.
I also as well struggle with Schizophrenia, Major Depressive Disorder with Psychosis, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Borderline Personality Disorder. I have struggled for 10 plus years on getting a diagnoses and in return my doctor states that it is the strangest case of schizophrenia she has ever seen. I too experience similar episodes as you explain. They are doing further testing to see if their is a tumor, parasites, and etc. that cause my episodes. I hope all goes well with your journey. I am new to daily strength and am searching for some advice as well.
This is a good site.... I'm glad that you found us..... Gentle hug.....xo
https://www.dailystrength.org/group/bipolar-disorder