Hi everyone,

My story will almost definitly make you shake your head in disbelief. But unfortunately its true...I wish it wasn't.

I will try and make this as short as possible. I really could use your advice.

I moved my wife in only 2 mths after meeting her in Nov 2012, Married Nov 2013. She started an affair days after moving in. To keep me in the dark they used GHB 3 - 4 times a week for 1st yr. After moving into a different apt in same complex they started poisoning me with hydrogen peroxide and both started raping me 4 - 5 days a week. I bled a lot the first time .... she said it took all night to stop. This continued for 2 yrs. He also would punch me off and on when I would resist. .... the bruises make sence now. They rented me out to their party friends....sometimes overnight as it would last 12 hrs with me. Through small things and extreme pain in rectal area 4 mths ago did I find out. She said she used a med named "anal ease" so I wouldn't feel the pain. She put the GHB in my coffee in the morning. 

I set up an audio tape and was astonished to hear myself being raped and knocked out by 4 men while my wife watched. 

How could it go on for sooooo long without me knowing? I remember maybe 30 - 40 days in the past 2 yrs. She said I would directions like a robot...eyes shut or bugged out...but if someone would call me names or hit me I would fight them. 

Because she has been diagnosed with a personality disorder the DA is hesitate to prosecute...even though he has the audio tapes and her confession. So Im here to pick up the pieces while everyone walks free. 

How..could..I..not..catch..on? I blame myself so much for not remembering and fighting back harder where they would stop.

I see a surgen on Mon for the pain. I just don't understand.

Walt