That’s great muji. Everything is going well for you. My impression was that getting your meds would be easier in Mexico rather than harder. I’d be interested in whether I could get the supplements I rely on.

I think, so, Loo. They're big into supplements, natural medicine, and stuff like that here, too.

That's awesome, Muji! So happy for you!

Prescriptions would be another popular excuse in Texas to visit Mexico. Claim is that the out of pocket expense in Mexico is cheaper than allot of US co-pays. I don't use doctor drugs often enough to know, but I have zero doubt price-gouging is a common medical practice in the US. God bless socialized medicine.

I don't often talk to US pharmacists --not even my pharmacist in-laws-- but I adored talking to pharmacists in South America. I could go in and get what I needed to get me through the night without doing all the waiting room shuffle you have to do in the US. They had tons of suggestions when I wasn't all the way sure I knew what I needed.

That's awesome Muji! I know that even here in the US switching states and pharmacies can be a nightmare. I am so glad it went so well for you in Mexico!! YAYAY!!

That's great news muji...I'm glad it worked out for ya :)

So relieved for you. Getting enough good sleep is a cornerstone of coping with PTSD.

It's a great accomplishment to know I have my PTSD meds available for good retiring in Mexico. Yesterday was a big day for me proving that.

Now for today, I'm going to try to introduce myself more fully to my new Mexican face to face support group.

TRIGGER WARNING

I don't want to go into it for fun, but to introduce myself I have to go back over things and tell them about how my mother got frustrated at her second child's birth. So she killed our cat in front of me when she brought my sister home from the hospital to show what happens when you demand too much of mommy. I was afraid I'd end up like that dead cat, too, which was her point..

She never hugged or kissed me. Because I knew that in church she didn't want to look cold as she really was, I would make her hold my hand there during church services just so she would touch me some time. She hated that, and would beat me when we got home. As a sociopath, she enjoyed watching others suffer. When she'd get my bipolar father to hit me, she'd stand behind him with her sociopath smile on her face, and her eyes bright and shining from sadist pleasure.

TRIGGER WARNING

I need to tell the group also that my nerves in my legs are gone from Seroquel overdoses for nightmares from the day I was tortured at age 15. In Iraq and Afghanistan in the USA's recent wars, the torture used was waterboarding, drowning people. In Uruguay, Argentina, and Chile, though, since they were cattle countries the CIA taught torture with electric cattle prods. Cattle prod electric shocks were applied to the genitalia of people.

I have nerve damage progressing now in my extremities, my legs, my feet, and my genitalia. Four times a year a neurologist tests my extremities with needles to see what I feel. It's less every time. I can't feel the skin below my knees now, even though I'm really glad my muscles work enough to walk with a cane.I can feel nerves in my legs and feet die every day, though.

A dying nerve burns and vibrates before it goes dead. So all of a sudden, out of nowhere I will be sitting still doing nothing, and my toe begins to vibrate. Then it burns, then it feels like a toothache, and then it stops feeling anything at all. Another nerve died last night thanks to Uruguay's dictatorship that ended in 1985. It's 2021, and it still hasn't ended for me, it will never end for me and those like me.

It's going to be tough talking about all of this old stuff, but my new Mexican support group sponsor said it's what they want for me to do, so I'm going to see if I can. Probably not all of this at once, though. Whatever, please wish me luck.

Oh muji this brings tears to my eyes. Somehow through all that you still ended up being a good person.

Geez Muji.... You have been through so much.... This is gut wrenching.... I am so glad that you have a group and you feel comfortable sharing with... I hope that your meeting goes well my friend... Huge hug and a blessing for you.... xo

Yeah, it's the kind of thing that makes you glad you can have an online AND a face to face support group to lean on. Having these nerves continue to die reminds you trauma is chronic and not curable, it's a gift that keeps on giving. Without support it would be hard to live with that. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for all of the daily support y'all give me!

Hey, it's another Friday, can y'all believe how the week zipped by? I took a day off from my local Mexican face to face support group, but I'll be going to one tonight. I've got to share more of the stuff I wrote above with them so they'll know how to support me. Thanks for letting me rehearse it here first amongst all of y'all who already know me better. It's hard stories to tell, so you really help me get started. Hope everybody's looking forward to a good weekend!

Just got out of that face to face support group meeting here in Mexico, and I delivered on sharing aloud what I rehearsed with y'all here in written form. This time it was about the very first person who ever invited me to a support group meeting 36 years ago now. It was a great memory to share, but it doesn't have a happy ending. That person was an AA member who got me into Alanon. But they relapsed and ended up being reported on in the newspaper for drunkenly firing their pistol at the neighbor's house because the dog was barking. I really hope that's truly not the whole end of the story, that a better ending lies ahead.

I’m so happy it’s going well. It’s not often our dreams pan out like that.

Muji, sounds like thing are going well in Mexico for you. You deserve to be happy!