I’m done done done done 

I’ve slipped through the cracks in ‘society’ whatever the fuck that is anyways society. I have no one I’m completely alone! 

Im soooooootired of Trying 

What the FUCK is going on with doctors ?!?!?!?!?! 

Why am I a criminal because I have insane chronic pain & fucked up health from a lifetime of trying to survive 

why doesn’t anyone care why don’t I matter ? 

They want me to be in such pain & think I deserve it, they want me sooooooo badly to be a heroin addict, I’ve never done heroin NEVER had plans on it but with the fn hysteria!!!! & giving me sooo much trouble with helping my physical health because apparently.... oh I’m sooooo mad & sad & defeated I can’t even think straight 

I’m getting judged judged judged 

maybe I don’t deserve to heal, it’s probably not even possible so wtf have I been trying sooo hard for 

no health no money no support, keep getting denied for disability when I have at least SEVEN of the qualifications for it 

in a new place so my ex doesn’t finally find me 

why didn’t he succeed in murdering me ? Why did he prostitute me & beat me when I was so young 

Do these doctors just seee that on me 

Screww it I give up, why the hell not give up 

I am one of the forgottens , I am not even , I don’t even 

fine they all win, IM WORTHLESS FINE IM WORTHLESS 

ICANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE 

I’m nothing,  never even went to high school, no accolades, no anything , they alll see me as that , 

Im shaking so bad, if one person even know the shit I been through & go through it’s like a fd up cartel, horror movie 

everywhere I go I am kind to people & polite & it doesn’t mattter NOTHING MATTERS 

IM ONE OF THE ONES THAT SLIPPED THROUGH THE CRACKS 

im one of the forgotten ones, the invisible people 

kindness means nothing to this world it’s all about other stuff that I dooo not understand 

I have no idea what I’m going to do I’m not okay 

but one thing I know is that if I reach out for help & try hard hard so hard that it doesn’t even matter & im nothing 

I need to end the pain