Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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I’m done done done done
I’ve slipped through the cracks in ‘society’ whatever the fuck that is anyways society. I have no one I’m completely alone!
Im soooooootired of Trying
What the FUCK is going on with doctors ?!?!?!?!?!
Why am I a criminal because I have insane chronic pain & fucked up health from a lifetime of trying to survive
why doesn’t anyone care why don’t I matter ?
They want me to be in such pain & think I deserve it, they want me sooooooo badly to be a heroin addict, I’ve never done heroin NEVER had plans on it but with the fn hysteria!!!! & giving me sooo much trouble with helping my physical health because apparently.... oh I’m sooooo mad & sad & defeated I can’t even think straight
I’m getting judged judged judged
maybe I don’t deserve to heal, it’s probably not even possible so wtf have I been trying sooo hard for
no health no money no support, keep getting denied for disability when I have at least SEVEN of the qualifications for it
in a new place so my ex doesn’t finally find me
why didn’t he succeed in murdering me ? Why did he prostitute me & beat me when I was so young
Do these doctors just seee that on me
Screww it I give up, why the hell not give up
I am one of the forgottens , I am not even , I don’t even
fine they all win, IM WORTHLESS FINE IM WORTHLESS
ICANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE
I’m nothing, never even went to high school, no accolades, no anything , they alll see me as that ,
Im shaking so bad, if one person even know the shit I been through & go through it’s like a fd up cartel, horror movie
everywhere I go I am kind to people & polite & it doesn’t mattter NOTHING MATTERS
IM ONE OF THE ONES THAT SLIPPED THROUGH THE CRACKS
im one of the forgotten ones, the invisible people
kindness means nothing to this world it’s all about other stuff that I dooo not understand
I have no idea what I’m going to do I’m not okay
but one thing I know is that if I reach out for help & try hard hard so hard that it doesn’t even matter & im nothing
I need to end the pain
You ARE someone. Someone who deserves respect. But I know exactly where you are coming from. I've given us too.
"When I was diagnosed with PTSD, it took 12 years to get down to work on those issues for me in therapy. Most therapists I had didn't understand, it was all too foreign to them. Plus, it involved overlapping categories of PTSD that were usually separate for most therapists: they wanted to talk about the sexual assault or the domestic violence or the combat PTSD. Take your pick. They weren't used to a patient who had all three intertwined as was the case with me."
Those were some very, very tough 12 years. I didn't work as a stripper, as kaisad mentions having done, but I did go through 2 divorces during those years. Like kaisad, I didn't get into drugs or alcohol, either. That would have been just another "box" to be trapped in, wouldn't it?
I got lucky, and as I wrote on kaisad's other thread, when a job change brought me to move to a new city, I found that therapist who was one in a million, who actually "got" me. It took 12 long years to find him, though. I honestly don't know how I hung on that long.
There was no magic to how this therapy worked with me, it just worked the way therapy is supposed to work, that's all. It was so simple that now it just seems outrageous that it took 12 years for it to start working. I gave up many times during those 12 years of frustration, believe me. I gave up on two marriages, for starters. Those divorces were extremely painful; I ended up in the hospital over the 2nd one.
Then when I found that therapist who was one in a million to me, therapy just simply worked for me. That's the difference between being heard and not being heard. In my experience it makes a world of difference, literally all the difference in the world.
After I made this post I got one of the worst migraines I had in years & then my jaw & neck locked & I kept trying to lay down & wait it out
Until last night/early this morning my jaw popped really bad & I kept trying to put it back in place but no luck everything was so locked up
finally went to ER, where they just kept giving me shots of muscle relaxant & anti inflammatories
After the muscle relaxers I could move my neck a little more & they said they couldn’t take a MRI without an order from a doctor & the same that I know that I have to find a doctor that specializes in jaw & all the discharge papers (I don’t think they really knew what to do) when I was leaving, one of the nurses kept saying she was sorry what I was going through & that she hopes things get better ...
I just got home & was laying down & i think my jaw finally popped back in place & I’m afraid to even move it cause I don’t want it to pop again
I couldn’t login in the hospital but I could open ds to the ptsd board & I was crying from some of the responses that......
I can’t explain how much you guys helped me & I will continue to keep trying one moment at a time
& I’m so sorry for you guys that can relate
Also sorry for all the cursing in this post I don’t think I ever posted a post this raw & like that
I want to write more but my brains like scrambled eggs & I pushing through the back & fourth dissociation rite now
Thank you guys so much hugs from my heart <3
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Hugs
J.
Then on my trip to the States July 3rd to see the Rolling Stones for my birthday I made a dental appointment for when I get back to the USA in August. I have dental insurance from my job in the USA, so that's why.
Meanwhile, I'm walking around back in Mexico with a tooth missing on my left side, but it's a molar, so it doesn't show up front. I'm kind of self conscious about it, though.
Since I broke the tooth grinding my teeth, for now my jaw unhinging has stopped. It's a real pain, isn't it? I mean, bizarre. It leaves my mouth in limbo, where I can't shut it or open it, either one.
Sorry you have the same experience jaw wise, but glad you and I can relate. PTSD in the brain sure leads to some odd symptoms elsewhere, doesn't it?
It’s been a heck of a few days
Big hugs <3
Yet here you are still. not isolating as I'm always so tempted to do when it all falls apart like it does. Here you are letting us come up along side you as companions in support. That's something else, lilmiss. It's a real example to me for when things go bad for me again next time, what with my PTSD being so chronic and all. I'm with you to support you but also to learn from you, you're not alone.
I'm really grateful, I'm not just saying that, because I have to have a tooth fixed at the dentist next week that I broke from grinding my teeth in my sleep from PTSD. So I'd like to use some preventive medicine with my doctor like those tips you gave me from yours.