If these doctors want to think every person in pain is a heroin addict then should I finally cave & just go do it

I mean they think cause i have pain that I’m a criminal
they think that cause people out there doing heroin & I never did but have been prescribed pain pills that that’s somehow connected ???? I don’t get it
I don’t even judge the person doing heroin because I could almost guarantee that person in hurting, another thing I’m sure I’m looked down upon for having empathy for others that people feel comfortable judging.

Still don’t know what that has to do with me but after this constant hysteria & pain patient especially like me being collateral damage in the current war on drugs. After all the years of trying to show that I just want help & constantly running into this it’s like fine

maybe they win, maybe that’s what my destiny is cause I deserve it cause my pain

after all these years & pushing pushing pushing from these doctors , shit maybe I should believe them that they think I should just do heroin because I’m a piece of shit , stupid slut , & pieces of shot like me should deserve to suffer & not be out of pain cause my kind Should be in the streets doing heroin

How can survive in the streets this time with these disabilities & physical limitations but is that truly my only option? I don’t want that option why do they need sooo badly for that to be my option

I need to get out of this pain & life & not sure how to do it at the moment

I'm sorry.

The pharmacy companies faked research to make it look like pain meds (if taken just for pain) were never addictive. As such doctors (including some corrupt ones) started handing them out like candy with encouragement to take them for even mild pain.

The predictable happened...half the country got addicted.

The PATIENTS are the innocent ones here...and the ones that are paying an extremely high price.

There are parts of the country where, to get narcotics, you have to go to pain clinics. Pee tests at most visits. Pill counts at all visits (don't be low, OR high) and even blood tests.

It's nuts. It might help to know that a LOT of people are going through it. For arthritis pain, back pain, ....you name it. From teenagers to senior citizens.

Gentle hugs

Im so sorry lilmissy. I so wish things would start getting easier for u cos u sure do deserve better to happen. Huge hugs. Please dont give up. Id miss u loads if anything bad happened to u. Hugs.

lilmiss, like I'm having to say in every reply of mine today, I'm about to post that I'm feeling fragile today myself, so all I can do is tell you for sure today that you're not alone.

Lil Missy, my heart goes out to you. You have supported so many here on DS. There are alternatives to narcotics for some chronic pain situations. Hopefully, you find a doctor who can send you to a pain management clinic to try some options, with minimal narcotics. Agree with Patti that the doctors created the problem, and now those in pain pay the price. Supportive, calming, and comforting hugs surrounding you.

So sorry, lil missy. Not going to say anything else except that because I don't want to invalidate your feelings. Lots of hugs your way. Hang in there.

Sweet Missy, I’m so so sorry.

I’ve gone through that kind of treatment from previous providers for the last two decades. No one deserves to be made to feel criminal for getting therapy and relief from chronic pain and illness. I know exactly what it feels like as I’ve had it happen so many times just on my medication lists alone. My medical history has caused just as many issues. Too often I’ve been treated in a way that makes me feel like a hypochondriac and psychotic mess that I knew only despair.

You don’t deserve that kind of treatment my friend.

There is hope though, Missy. Last year I had begun to give up completely because of my providers and their treatments and assumptions. Then I moved and got new doctors, doctors who listened, who believed me, who genuinely care. I didn’t think they existed anymore but I am so relieved to be proved wrong. That means that there is still hope for people like us, Missy. It shows we are not doomed to being vilified and misunderstood.

I don’t know what providers are available in your area, but I would like to give you some hope. You don’t have to put up and suffer through such callous treatment to take care of your health. You don’t have to stay with any provider who does not give you the care you need.

I know insurance and health plans limit our options but it helps me to remember that I pay those doctors to treat me, I provide their income. I am their client and patient and as their paying customer I deserve respect and quality service from them.

I used to tolerate the mistreatments of my providers, their mistakes, misjudgments and assumptions. I don’t anymore. There are patient advocacy groups for every health care system and quality assurance departments for every insurance company. As much as I’ve always been afraid to file complaints, I learned last year that unless I did so, I was only enabling the callous providers to mistreat not only me but other patients as well.

If you have the ability, I encourage you my friend to speak up for yourself and let the advocates who are there for this very reason know how unacceptable your treatment has been. Those advocates are their for your benefit and protection.

Hugs and much love, Missy.

lilmissy7, I have to been honest with you. my heart is broken that you have gone thru such hard times. But, you are not alone, you are worth healing, and you have a purpose in life. I want to reach out to you thru my laptop and give you a a huge hug. I wish I could help you in your hometown. The unfair treatment of so called professionals is unacceptable. I urge you to speak up and seek therapy from another physician and therapists. there is hope for you. there is light at the end of the tunnel. Do NOT give up. I would love to talk with you and help you however possible. Sending love, peace, strength and courage with hugs to you. feel free to pm me. this site is a great source of support and I am here for you too. :)

Sorry I didn't have more to offer you yesterday, lilmiss, I was having one of those bad PTSD days myself. But I'm glad I still posted, though empty handed as to having help to offer, just so you'd know you were on my mind. Over night my bad day translated into an insomniac night, no surprise there, right?

I'm operating now on only 4 hours of sleep, but the flashbacks every few minutes have subsided into my just being exhausted. It's a lot to have those flashbacks coming every few minutes like an electric shock for a whole day at a time, so even if they stop because mind and body are too depleted to deliver them any more, I'm grateful.

I just want to echo what somebody else already wrote here, that I got through yesterday and many other days before it down through the years because of your kind support. As much as you suffer, you support others just as much, and I really admire that about you. It's not just something in general that I'm speaking of. You've specifically given me the exact support I needed for that day, you have made "daily strength" real and more than a slogan here for me repeatedly.

So tired as I am from a day and a night of flashbacks gone haywire, please know I'm sending you all the support I can share. You're a true friend to me and to many here, a real companion in solidarity as we all face this thing of getting through what PTSD keeps throwing at us. You're not alone, my friend.

Lilmissy,

Don't give up. Offering you my love and support.

Hugs. Hoping ur ok.

Big hug for you Missy.... I am so sorry that you're going through such a terrible time.... Can you be referred to a pain clinic??

Here (Ontario) in emerg it's now not legal to prescribe opioids...… I'm not sure what doctor you're seeing or where you're seeing him/her.....

Being referred to a pain clinic might help you sweetie... I'm so sorry you're hurting so badly and you're right it's due to the opioid crisis that everyone is being treated the same..... xo

Thinking of you again today, lilmiss. You're the best.

@PrayforJT,

This is NOT a dating site.

OMG i totally relate. Doctors have always tried to put me in a box. According to their stats.

I survived having left very young to be a stripper i never got into drugs or alcohol, in fact the opposite the whole time i was a stripper i ran half marathons, did 2 triathlons, ate super healthy i was also a long distance swimmer. The whole time i was working as a stripper.

One time i manage to be able to go to group therapy as soon as i said i was a stripper the therapist said that i needed to go to rehab! ???!!! i told her i do not do drugs or drink never have and she said "You need to stop being in denial" it was the first session she did NOT know me from adam.

And similar cases have happened every time i been to a therapist. They ASSUME what the stats tell them about people and they just throw you in that box and that's that. I never found any help at all.